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[420]

[Filtered to Eridan Ampora]

[It actually takes him some minutes to decide how to do this. Text is his first instinct but no, that doesn't feel right. Not for something of this magnitude. With what he did, he doesn't get to hide behind text. He's gotta say it right to Eridan's face, gotta apologize properly like how Wataru had taught him to.

So, onto video it is. He clears his throat for a moment, looking somewhat uneasy.]

Can we talk?

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[unconchonable]

[He almost doesn't even want to answer this at all, but despite what he thinks is his better judgement, he does so anyways. Maybe it's for Karkat's sake, maybe it's for what remnants of fondness he might still have towards Gamzee, despite this. Though, those remnants are quickly dissolving as time goes by.]

What's there to talk about?

[His voice is stern and flat. He's still wearing the patch and bandages over his eye, for all the care it might have under gone, it's still not fully healed. Sickles to the face don't leave the easiest wounds to take care of, after all.]

[420]

[Damn, those sickle wounds. Damn them.]

I wanna apologize. For what I done. For... for attackin' you treating you like I fuckin' went and did.

[unconchonable]

That's not change what happened, it's not gonna giwe me my wision back, Gam.

[420]

I know. And I ain't fuckin' thinkin' like it all will, or we'll be bros again just cause I fuckin' said sorry. But I just all wanted to say so anyway.

[unconchonable]

You're right to think that, because we won't be bros. Not after that. How the fuck could you ewer ewen consider us bros at all if you were just gonna come after me like that. In fact, it's a fuckin' INSULT for you to ewen IMPLY we were ewer friends. Especially with how you turned on me an' refused to fuckin' beliewe a damn thing I or ANYONE said.

[He narrows his eyes.]

I'd expect that from Eq, or someone else who supposedly didn't giwe a damn about me. But then again, I guess this really shows how much you didn't actually care and how you were just waitin' for an excuse to fuckin' try to get rid a me. I don't giwe a fuck what you say, or how sorry you are. Fuck you, Gamzee.

[420]

[Oh shit, a full name out of Eridan. That says it all, doesn't it?]

I did like you. Still fuckin' do, brother, still do. I know it ain't all to be excusing what I done, but when I got my fuckin' pan cooked like that, I fuckin' would've all harshed at any motherfucker what done look like they did that.

[He pauses.]

I can't... really all be putting this wicked shit into word noises cause like it don't even make fuckin' sense to me but it were... easier thinking it were you who done it. Like [He seems to be struggling for words. He doesn't usually try and explain his thoughts like this, but Eridan deserves it.] if I all had some motherfucker to get right salty at with, it done would be meaning I weren't up as motherfuckin' shitty a moirail what didn't even all know his best bro had his nook in a place most unsafe.

[He sighs a little.]

But it is cool. If you ain't wanting to get your speak on with me no more, that's chill. I can't all be fuckin' making you do that, you get? That ain't right. I'll up and clear with with Karkat any time I come and crash at your crib some so you ain't gotta be laying ganderbulb on me if that ain't what you want to be doing.

[unconchonable]

[He listens, which is WAY more than he owes Gamzee, and to no one's surprise, it doesn't change a damn thing.]

With what you did, you fuckin' ensured bein' a downright shitty moirail an' a shittier friend, you don't just use people as fuckin' scapegoats because you can't cope with what happened. All you could think about was yourself, [Oops sure is a hypocrite.] what YOU were fuckin' feelin'. I'm hardly surprised. Sawe your bullshit excuses, Gamzee, I don't want to fuckin' hear 'em. Do you ewen understand the position you put me in? I found my fuckin' matesprit DEAD, then I get attacked by you, accused repeatiwely that I did it, ran outta my own hiwe. I had to hide because I might be culled, but not only by the killer, but by you! I didn't ewen hawe fuckin' time to griewe! You had it fuckin' easy, you fuckin' sandsuckin', grubfucker!

[His lip pulls into a sneer.]

It'd be best if you kept your distance as much as possible. I hardly want to waste my good wision receptor lookin' at you. You make damn sure I'm not around if you're plannin' on comin' ower.

[420]

[Gamzee's face falls a little at that deluge, even if he had been expecting it. There is something about hearing it that makes it more hurtful though. Probably because he knows it is all true.]

Aight. I get that.

I guess this is the last time we'll get our fuckin' speak on then. If you... If you ever all wanna slam the wicked shit with me again, you just gotta say, yeah? I'm here. Done got wicked elixir waiting.

[Hey, that had worked the last time with Karkat.]

[unconchonable]

Don't hold your breath.

[And with that he clicks the feed off. Sorry Gamzee, but Eridan is in no position to forgive you.]