Whether you forgive him or not is something you have to choose for yourself, Sola. That's not a decision I or Psii or anyone else can make for you.

Just because someone made you is no reason to give them a pass for bad behavior, either. You have a right to be angry with him, and to not want him in your life as a father figure. That is something you can choose, and it's just as valid a choice as deciding to have him in your life.