caughtinanetwork | 010 | Accidental Video

[Vatheon translates everything, so the fact that most of this is in French while he usually speaks in English doesn't matter. Of course, Ky hadn't intended any of this to matter either, because he hadn't deliberately set up his SFC to record. This isn't the kind of thing Ky would usually choose to share, but he's tired. He's been pushing himself as hard as he can, and he's only in his apartment now because he knows he's past the point where he'll do any good on the streets.

He's fully clothed and kneeling on the floor of his room. His SFC sits on his dresser, set up well to show him. Although his words are at first too quiet to get picked up, they grow a little louder.]

-- wounded Your heart. Lord, let me be freed from the bonds of evil through Your unending love so that I may be put back on the path of righteousness. Father, forgive me for what I have been and have mercy upon me.

Lord, keep my parents' souls close to You in Your grace and know that for all the days of my life which I have been given by Your love, I will pray for them. Please forgive them for their sins, bless them, and allow them to dwell always with You.

Please help us to catch this murderer. Let no more people be hurt or harmed by them, and allow those who have suffered already to be healed and be held close by those who love them. Give us the strength and wisdom to carry out Your divine will and ensure that justice prevails for all of Your creation. Let those sacrifices which have been made not go in vain.

O Holy Spirit, take me as Your disciple. Guide me, illuminate me, and make me worthy of Your gifts. Bind my hands that they may do no evil; open my eyes so that I may see the world clearly around me; strengthen my heart that evil may not dwell within me. I am Your humble servant Lord. Where You lead, I will follow; where there is darkness I will bring Your light; where there is temptation I will overcome it. Command me in Your strength and lead me to the fullness of Your truth.

I ask this in the name of Jesus Christ, our Lord.

Amen.

[He's just going to kneel there for a moment, the plan is to do so until he gathers up the emotional and physical strength to get ready for sleep.]

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Perhaps. It's not something I struggle with.

You are among a slim number.

Here, perhaps.

Yes, I suppose the opposite is true on my world. Almost the entirety was swallowed in a blind religion up until recently.

Do you believe that all religion is blind, Jade?

[There was a long pause there as Jade considered his answer.]

Not all religion, but many participants.

For believing in something without proof?

For believeing in something without questioning.

Sometimes questioning is important, and sometimes even then it still leads you back to where you started.

In the end, you still went somewhere. Are you against questions?

No. But I think in this context it's a personal thing. I have to satisfy my own questions on my faith, not other people's.

And if people have questions about your faith, why you believe, why someone like myself should, are those questions not ones that need to be satisfied?

They would need to be satisfied if I were asking you to believe what I do. And certainly I would attempt to give an answer no matter what.

Good to know.

Ultimately it's not something I don't question, but in the lack of an answer either way I choose to have faith.

[Jade smirked.]

I suppose I envy those who can have faith in something illogical.

[Wait, was that insulting? Ah well.]

[Ky's fairly certain that that's an insult, and he frowns at it.]

Who are you to declare something logical or not?

[Jade seems to realize that was insulting, but then again, in so much as he doesn't want to offend the boy, he's also curious.

Of course, he's not wanting to lose an ally either.]

It's illogical to me, based on my experiences and the facts I know.