caughtinanetwork | 015//Video\\Washed up Colonel

[Jade looks like he's freshly out of the shower, but there's a contemplative look in his eyes. He normally doesn't share his thoughts, but the last curse and seeing the effects of people completely changing personalities based on headwear has made him think.]

I wish I could say I was old enough for a mid-life crisis, and given the circumstances, it's impressive more of my head isn't grey, but I digress.

The last curse has got me thinking. Vatheon has more power over us than we'd care to admit. The basics of our genders, personalities, and even full bodies have been changed and swapped up so many times it seems that it's almost curious Vatheon has not done anything more sinister; at least not more openly. Yes, the occasional change is cumbersome, but at it's core, many of the curses seem far more... I don't wish to say lenient- but not as bad as the Lamufao, with all its power, could be.

[A pause for thought as he presses his towel to the back of his neck.]

Which brings me to the question that everyone's been asking over and over since we arrived: Why us, and what is the purpose? I've heard its for a experiment, that we help charge the Coral -though it's failure recently seems to counteract that. I do not wish to say we've grown complacent, but I hear the questions asked less and less-specifically because the answers either simply do not seem to exist, or are nigh impossible to find.

My own question is this:

What would you do, if you weren't really you? If the you that exists in this place is not the you that exists on your own world; if the you now is simply a fabrication of the Coral, its purpose unknown; being changed from body to body, or being molded by the curses simply because the body is not yours in the first place.

Would you remain in your home, or would you make the effort to change your circumstances, find your real body and your home?

Threaded | Flat

[The text that comes through in response is completely anonymous.]

They don't want to break you, they only want to shake you up.

Startin' point ain't what matters. S'where you want t'go that does.

[Short, but he doesn't feel like answering the more superficial part of the question. Or what seems like the more superficial part to him, anyhow.]

[...that sure is something he'd never thought to put in perspective.

It made sense, anyway. A living being couldn't simply be resurrected at the drop of a hat, no matter what the laws of different realms and dimensions invoked. So, was he simply a copy of the Alister Azimuth that had perished at the Great Clock? Was his only purpose to exist as fuel for a abstruse coral in the middle of nowhere? And there were the markings...

If he could have the chance to find his 'real' body, it wouldn't matter in the end. That body had perished. He no longer existed in Polaris, Solana, or any galactical entity.

The Omniwrench stops mid-turn on his current project, shrinking down to rest upon his back once more. And he stands, giving a glance to his friend on the SFC.]

I need to pick up a few things at the junkyard, Colonel. I'll be back by the evening.

[Read: He needs time to think.]

How would you tell, if you weren't really you? I think I would know if I wasn't really me, and I could tell if you weren't really you, maybe....

[ Anna, that wasn't Jade's point. ]

[What if the cause he serves, that he needs to get back to, is going to continue on, without him, with some other version of him?

What if not only does what he's doing now not matter, but what if the he who's here can't do anything that matters?

Who is he if he isn't the real Ky Kiske, if he doesn't have his duty?

He doesn't know.]

You mean, if we were only splinters of ourselves?

[He grins, but there isn't much humor to it.]

Well, it wouldn't be the first time. Final outcome is supposed to be helping the main you, but there's not much that can be done for that when we forget everything about this place as soon as we're reconnected with our own universe.

Edited (vatheon isn't a method of communication, oops) 2013-06-25 01:16 (UTC)

[OH LOOK AT THIS, IT PINGS HIM SO HARD.]

Real or not, you are you, ja? You still have thoughts and feelings.

For me, I'm fine here.

[Because the alternative? Yeah he'd rather have Vatheon.]

[He's not entirely sure he understands the question 100%, but Fai gets enough of it that the hypothetical that Jade is proposing kind of frightens him.]

I would still stay here.

To say that one is or isn't one's self is hard to say. It's the experiences that make one's live who one is. If we are or aren't who we believe, should it be revealed in time to us, then so be it. However when it comes down to it, what can we do?

[For most this seems to end.]

[Locked to Jade]

If you wish for this to be looked into, my friends from where I'm from and I have a detective agency near the Nostalgia Nook. Hard to miss it. If you want to discuss things "privately," don't bring your comm.

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