[It's a claw tearing at his insides and he wants to just end this conversation now but done But he's made it this far.]

Why. Explain this to me, explain what it is you are doing by making such a choice.

[It's reaching out the best he can right now, which seems likely barely at all. Summoner's furious and disappointed and just extremely conflicted in this moment and he wants a reason not to end this. Earlier when Darkleer mentioned this being something good to look to during all of this darkness, Summoner agreed. But being in her service is just not something he can allow himself to do or understand.]

To what lengths will you serve her...