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[marriedatoilet]

if i use txt then i cant blurt out anything but how do i deal with things i just want to confess?????

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[text]

[singlefileplease]

I mean I love you like you want someone to love you. That is how I love you.

[text]

[marriedatoilet]

so is that a yes?

[text]

[singlefileplease]

No, it is not.

[text]

[marriedatoilet]

[Azusa is a friend. A death scythe. A comrade in arms. They had been there for each other ever since they were students. Their relationship was platonic.

But then why did she feel slightly disappointed?]

oh ok

[text]

[singlefileplease]

...I feel like this is the sort of thing we should be discussing in person.

[text]

[marriedatoilet]

where are u?

[text]

[singlefileplease]

Outside the laboratory. Because I was trying to avoid you and this conversation.

[text]

[singlefileplease]

I mean - oh never mind. Just come join me.

[In Person]

[marriedatoilet]

[A few moments later, the front door to the lab opens and Marie steps out.]

Azusa?

[In Person]

[singlefileplease]

[kJFKA;JFKA] I was hoping you wouldn't actually come out here.

It's fine that you did, of course! But I just. Was hoping... [Wow she hates being this honest.]

[In Person]

[marriedatoilet]

[Jeez Azusa way to make things super awkward.]

Would it be better if I were to go?

[In Person]

[singlefileplease]

...No.

[In Person]

[marriedatoilet]

[She sits down next to Azusa.]

So? Why did you call me out here? I'm curious.

[In Person]

[singlefileplease]

...I didn't want to get rejected in front of other people via text.

[In Person]

[marriedatoilet]

Azusa...? [There was no way.] Do you mean?

[In Person]

[singlefileplease]

I do. [Azusa is going to just. Withstand the urge to run away.]

[In Person]

[marriedatoilet]

Azusa...

[There are a few moments where Marie is silent. When she does speak again, her voice is quiet, barely above a whisper.]

We can't love each other, me and Stein. I'm not his and he's not mine. He's from a different world. A different place where his Marie is not mine, because his Marie succeeded where I failed. Even if he was from my world, it wouldn't work out. He's just... He has a hard time showing his affection.

It's kind of petty, isn't it? [She chuckles lowly, disguising her self loathing as amusement.] Not wanting to be with a man when he loves me but can't show it. Even if this Stein could, I wouldn't have him. He deserves his Marie, and I don't deserve him. I don't even deserve you. In your world I either end up a failure, or you get to know the amazing Marie who defeated Medusa, brought back Stein, and saved the day.

Who would want a failure anyway?

[In Person]

[singlefileplease]

[Azusa doesn't quite know what to say to that. At least, nothing that won't hurt Marie's feelings. So she keeps herself quiet until she can come up with something better.]

He doesn't view Maka as a failure, even though the one here didn't do what his Maka was capable of. And you're not a failure either.

[In Person]

[marriedatoilet]

[A few more moments of silence. She's trying to hold back the tears.]

Then why do I view myself as one?

[In Person]

[singlefileplease]

I don't know, but you're not one. Don't cry. [Tentatively, Azusa pulls Marie into a hug]

[In Person]

[marriedatoilet]

[Marie clings to Azusa, burying her head into the other woman's shoulder and sobbing.]

[In Person]

[singlefileplease]

[She's just going to hold Marie and try to be a good friend and not say anything to make her more upset.]

[In Person]

[marriedatoilet]

[It takes her several minutes to calm down, but as she speaks she's still choking back the sobs.]

You love me?

[In Person]

[singlefileplease]

I always have.

[In Person]

[marriedatoilet]

[There's a moment's pause before she answers in a hushed voice.]

Then I love you too.