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[spiria]

i heard somewhere that writing letters you never intend to send to someone helps you to cope with how you feel toward them.

has anyone ever done this? im thinking of trying it. its better than just moping around.

also to everyone who has been helping me feel better so far, thank you very much. im really grateful for all your help.

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[spiria]

my friends have been doing so much to help me through things already .... i dont want to inconvenience them any more than i already have.

[flared]

How do you know that it would bother them?

[spiria]

rin has been trying to be strong for me ... i dont think he thinks i can see it, but i can. hes hurting too. he even called upon some of my other friends to take turns making sure i eat and sleep.

all of them have done enough for me already. its time that i start handling myself like an adult. ive reacted really stupidly to the whole thing and i cant keep relying on everybody to make sure i take care of myself.

[flared]

Oh Rin's a friend of yours?

It's good to have some sense of individuality about yourself but there are still times when you can call upon others for help, you know?

[spiria]

yeah. he and i are really close. or i think we are ...

ive relied on everyone else so much lately. i really think i just need to find a way to cope with whatever remains of the depression myself. i understand though. friends really do come through for you when you need them. all of mine have more than proven that, especially lately.

[flared]

As long as you understand, then you'll be fine. In a place like this, being by yourself is tough.

Are you two from the same world?

[spiria]

no, rin and i met here. we met when he was being grumpy over the network one day. i was going to tease him but we actually ended up having a pretty lengthy conversation. we have been friends ever since.

[flared]

Cute. I just met him recently myself.

[spiria]

hes pretty great, even if he doesnt really think that himself, right?

hes done so much for me, especially lately. i hope i can repay him somehow.

[flared]

He seems pretty modest.

Maybe you should throw him a party.

[He's totally joking, of course, but the idea seems funny to him regardless.]

[spiria]

i dunno ... i think it needs to be something a little more heartfelt than that.

i will keep it in mind though.

[flared]

You should write that stuff down somewhere. You know, like in a journal.

[spiria]

i could do that.

i need to go get a notebook so i can write letters anyway, i'm sure i can find a place to put that down.

[flared]

There you go. Problem solved.