caughtinanetwork | 040 ♋ [TEXT] - a followup to the prior one

WORD TO THE NOT SO WISE:
JUST BECAUSE YOU NO LONGER HAVE ACCESS TO TRANS-TIME MEMOS DOES NOT MEAN YOU GET TO STOP DEALING WITH THE SHAMEFUL DISPLAYS OF YOUR OWN PAST SELF.
EXAMPLE: MY PRIOR POST.
AS SOME OF YOU COMMENTED TO AND LIKELY OTHERS BESIDES NOTICED, YESTERDAY I APPARENTLY GOT IT IN MY LOBE TO BE THE MOST HUMILIATING FARTSQUEAL I COULD MANAGE TO BE BY, OF ALL THINGS, THROWING A TANTRUM OVER A SINGLE BURNT PIECE OF TOAST.
AND TRUST ME, AS EMBARRASSING AS THAT MUST HAVE BEEN TO WITNESS, IT IS AT LEAST TEN TIMES WORSE FOR ME TO LOOK BACK ON AND SEE EX POST FACTO.
SO, IN A DISPLAY OF NOT BEING A TOTAL TURDSTAIN, I WANT TO APOLOGIZE ON BEHALF OF DOUCHEBAG PAST ME FOR ALL THE IDIOTIC AND FRANKLY ASSHOLISH STUFF I UNLOADED ON BOTH COMMENTERS AND READERS OF THE WHOLE POST.
I DIDN'T MEAN IT.
LIKE, SERIOUSLY, THERE'S A CURSE GOING ON AND AFTER SOME STUFF I HEARD ABOUT PEOPLE EARLIER IN THE WEEK AND TALKING TO OTHERS, I KNOW I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO WAS AFFECTED.
I GUESS YESTERDAY WAS JUST "BE THE BIGGEST JACKASS YOU CAN" DAY
OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT, I DON'T KNOW.
IS THERE EVEN A THEME TO THIS?
IT'S WEIRD FOR IT TO JUST LAST A DAY WITHOUT SOME KIND OF EXTERNAL CAUSE FOR IT.
WHATEVER, I'M BABBLING.
THE POINT IS THAT I WAS OUT FOR THE GOLD MEDAL IN BEING A NOOKBITER YESTERDAY, I REGRET IT, HERE'S YOUR APOLOGY.

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THEY PRETTY MUCH ALWAYS LAST A WEEK, SO TO DISCOUNT IT NOW IS JUST ASKING TO BE CLOCKED IN THE CRANIAL CAVITY WITH SOME OTHER EFFECT.
I'M GUESSING THERE HAS TO BE SOME THEME TO IT, BUT WHATEVER IT IS IS LOST ON ME ENTIRELY.

:33 < yes i suppaws youre right ://
:33 < i cant really guess what it is either though!

:33 < uhm, and karkat?
:33 < could you talk to tavros please maybe?
:33 < i think hes really upset that you told him you dont want to be friends

THEN MY GUESS WOULD BE SOME HUMAN THING I DON'T CARE ABOUT ENOUGH TO FIGURE OUT.
BUT...
FINE, I GUESS.
GAMZEE WASN'T HAPPY ABOUT IT EITHER.
AND IT'S NOT LIKE I HAVE A REAL PROBLEM WITH THE GUY, HE JUST STAMMERS A LOT
AND I'M NOT REAL CLOSE TO HIM.
I MEAN TEREZI AND I HAD HIM LIVE WITH US TO KEEP HIM AWAY FROM VRISKA'S PARTICULAR BRAND OF BATSHIT WELL OVER A YEAR AGO
BUT WE HARDLY BECAME FIST BUMPING PUPA PALS OVER THE WHOLE THING EITHER.
AND NO THAT'S NOT ME ARGUING AGAINST TALKING TO HIM, SINCE I KNOW EVEN BETTER THAN YOU DO THAT PAST ME WAS A JACKASS YESTERDAY.

:33 < he doesnt stammer anywhere near as much as he used to ://
:33 < i know youre not best friends or anything
:33 < but you were still friends, right?
:33 < thanks, karkat
:33 < it means a lot that youll talk to him and make things better :33

I GUESS?
SORT OF.
IF YOU WERE GOING TO TWIST MY ARM ABOUT IT I'D SAY I LIKE HIM MORE THAN I DISLIKE HIM.
I JUST WANT TO GET THIS MESS CLEARED UP.

:33 < im not going to twist your arm about it!
:33 < thats what i want too
:33 < you don't have to be bestest friends
:33 < just friends who talk and get along :33

[A while later:]

OKAY, I'VE TRIED, BUT THE WHOLE CONVERSATION TURNED INTO AWKWARD SHELLBEAST SAT IN A LINGERIE DEPARTMENT LEVELS OF UNCOMFORTABLE.
I APOLOGIZED FOR BEING A DICK, WHICH IS RARE ENOUGH BUT I'M HANDING IT OUT LIKE CANDY TODAY BECAUSE PAST ME WAS THAT MUCH OF A DOUCHENOZZLE
AND I TOLD HIM FRANKLY THAT I DON'T THINK HE AND I WILL EVER BE *CLOSE* FRIENDS, NOT WITHOUT REASON
BUT HE HAS SEEMED TO TAKE THE WHOLE THING AS ME INDIRECTLY TRYING TO TELL HIM I DON'T WANT TO BE FRIENDS AT ALL.
I HAVE TRIED AND BEEN NICE AS I GET, LIKE SERIOUSLY THE DICK-O-METER IS DIALED DOWN TO LOW TODAY FOR ME, BUT I DON'T THINK THERE'S MUCH ELSE I CAN DO FOR IT.

:33 < oh no :((
:33 < maybe he was still just too upset about it ://
:33 < i dont know
:33 < he still expects the worst sometimes
:33 < after everything vriska did to him
:33 < ill try and talk to him, karkat
:33 < but thank you for trying!!
:33 < it means lots and lots to me

DUDE, I WAS BEING A COMPLETE NOOKBITER YESTERDAY.
I BASICALLY OWED ANYONE WHO HAD THE MISFORTUNE OF EVEN READING THAT AMASSED EXAMPLE OF ASSHATTERY, LET ALONE THE PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY ENGAGED ME IN THAT MOCKERY OF CONVERSATION.

:33 < it wasnt your fault though
:33 < its still good of you to be trying to make up for it!

IT WAS STILL MY FINGERS TYPING THE WORDS, EVEN IF I WAS INFLICTED WITH AN ACUTE CASE OF ASSHATTERY
AND LIKE HELL I WAS ABOUT TO LET PAST ME COMMIT A CASE OF UNDESERVED CHARACTER ASSASSINATION AGAINST CURRENT ME.
THE RECORD WAS IN DIRE NEED OF SETTING STRAIGHT, AND THAT'S WHAT THIS IS ABOUT.

:33 < okay :((

:33 < well
:33 < in a w33k or so why dont you and gamz33 come over
:33 < we can all have some tea and spend time together
:33 < i f33l like i dont s33 you all that much any more now that...
:33 < now that signless is gone :((

MM.
YEAH, WE COULD DO THAT.
HOW HAVE YOU AND THE DISCIPLE BEEN HOLDING UP?

:33 < tavros has b33n there for me a lot
:33 < so ive b33n doing okay even if i still miss signless and mister psii lots and lots
:33 < disciple is staying with us for a while now
:33 < shes doing better than she was but shes still f33ling really hurt and lonely :((
:33 < its the second time she's lost them

I'M UNSURPRISED.
THEY WERE HERE MATESPRIT AND HER FRIEND BEFORE ANY OF US NEW HER AND
CONSIDERING EVERYTHING...
IT'S NOT HALFWAY CLOSE TO EASY, AND IT HAS TO BE THAT MUCH WORSE FOR HER.
AT LEAST YOU'RE HELPING EACH OTHER OUT.

:33 < it is really very very difficult
:33 < but she s33ms to be better when she's not left alone
:33 < she'd probably be glad to s33 you too
:33 < if you ever wanted to come over
:33 < me and tavros could go out if too many people being around would make things awkward

I'LL KEEP IT IN MIND AND GIVE YOU A HEADS UP IF IT HAPPENS.

:33 < okay
:33 < thank you, karkat

YEAH, NO PROBLEM.

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