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caughtinanetwork2012-09-22 03:09 pm
beauchevalier) wrote in caughtinanetwork2012-09-22 03:09 pm
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♠ 04 | video
[It's already mid-afternoon and Angelo, who already gotten food from one of the local stores right near the apartment to get food, decides to make a network call. Since he is a little bit worried for his roommate, thus makes a network broadcast. And while the the video on the SFC may be showing Trunks, it is in fact Angelo.]
Good afternoon everyone, there's someone in particular I'm attempting to find and wondering if anyone has seen him. His name is Lloyd Irving and he's my roommate. If you need a description of him... He has spiked brown hair, wears red, and has this cheerful grin on his face all the time. He told me before he left the apartment this morning that he was getting groceries for us to make breakfast then lunch. But it's both past those times and I'm growing a little concerned since he hasn't come back because he never misses them. If anyone has heard from him or seen him, please do let me know. My name's Angelo for those who don't really know me too well.
[ voice | private to Lloyd ]
If you're ignoring me or not coming back because you're angry with me or something, tell me. But if you've decided to stop at someone's house or forgot about getting our groceries, I want to know as well. I expect to hear a reply from you very soon.
[ooc: All replies will be fromcharmingsaiyan as usual.]
Good afternoon everyone, there's someone in particular I'm attempting to find and wondering if anyone has seen him. His name is Lloyd Irving and he's my roommate. If you need a description of him... He has spiked brown hair, wears red, and has this cheerful grin on his face all the time. He told me before he left the apartment this morning that he was getting groceries for us to make breakfast then lunch. But it's both past those times and I'm growing a little concerned since he hasn't come back because he never misses them. If anyone has heard from him or seen him, please do let me know. My name's Angelo for those who don't really know me too well.
[ voice | private to Lloyd ]
If you're ignoring me or not coming back because you're angry with me or something, tell me. But if you've decided to stop at someone's house or forgot about getting our groceries, I want to know as well. I expect to hear a reply from you very soon.
[ooc: All replies will be from
charmingsaiyan as usual.]
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[He sounds faintly frustrated by that.]
I know what you're feeling right now, but you need to rein it in. We'll find him.
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How can you expect me to be calm right now?! My roommate and friend, he's out there somewhere and people keep assuming some lunatic kidnapper has him with every intention of possibly kill him! While all you want me to do is be calm and eat food while he might be out there suffering somewhere?! [Thankfully only his eyes are changing and his hair is spiked, he's not going full super saiyan yet.]
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[He doesn't really appreciate the suggestion that he doesn't care, because he does. He's experienced a lot of loss over the years, though, so he's able to keep his calm.]
Breathe. You're losing it. I'm not joking when I say an uncontrolled, anger-driven transformation will probably bring this building down.
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...What is wrong with me, Trunks? I'm never this emotional with people... Why is this happening to me? Is it because I'm in your body?
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[Or maybe you're just beginning to really care.]
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[He rests his face on his hands.]
This is ridiculous and why I don't allow myself to become attached to anyone or anything.
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[He looks like he doesn't know what to do with his hands. Maybe reach out...but he doesn't. Not yet.]
Those attachments...they don't have to make you weaker. A lot of the time, they can do the opposite.
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Emotions are a sign of weakness and so are attachments regarding your emotions. [He then looks serious.] I won't go back to who I was...ever again.
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[He gives in, and puts a hand on Angelo's shoulder.]
No one ever said you have to go back to who you were before. As a matter of fact, that's impossible--you can't ever really go back, just forward. But what you can do, is learn from who you were. Become a better person. It doesn't matter if 'better' means stronger, smarter, or just more of a decent person. It means acknowledging your weaknesses and your faults, because everyone has them. Pretending they're not there doesn't make you stronger.
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It's too late for me, I can't learn from my faults and mistakes because there are too many. I've spiraled down into a horrible person that I can never recover from, even now it's hurting me inside to say all of this because I never have allowed anyone to know my true feelings. For years, all these thoughts and emotions have been suppressed inside of me. The pain of having them all resurface after so long...I want to never feel it again.
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It's not too late. You know how I know that? You can call yourself a horrible person, and not say it like it's a mark of pride. You can regret.
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It's only because I'm in your body, Trunks. Once I'm back in my own, I'll suppress my feelings again and act like this never happened. Though...part of me wants to not do that.
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[Trunks sighs.]
Why do you insist on believing you're such a horrible person?
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[Though instead of being sad, he's actually trying to laugh and do his usual grinning.]
I suppose Marcello was right to say I never should have been born or existed, maybe then my parents would be alive and he'd have gotten what he always wanted.
[action] oh god the tl;dr bomb has dropped. he mad.
[His eyes narrow because seriously what does he have to do for you to understand this.]
There are people in this world that are irredeemable, that deserve to be taken out of it. But for better or worse, they exist. They drive the people who are decent to better themselves. Everyone who exists, does it for a reason.
Take my father. He suppresses his emotions, because he learned in an environment like yours--that taught him that they were a weakness and something to be eliminated. He had the potential to be a good man, but instead? He's destroyed I don't even know how many worlds, killed probably billions of people. And he didn't care. He was given a chance to change, and in my timeline, he died trying to protect Earth, protect my mother and me and our home.
Sure, any one of those people he killed would have said that it would be better if he didn't exist. But without him, I wouldn't exist. The fighters on Earth wouldn't have been as strong, they wouldn't have been able to face some of the challenges they did. And billions more would have died.
Does that mean he's a good man? No, probably not. And does your suppression of emotions make you bad? No. Not in and of itself. You're human. It doesn't matter what you feel or what you're told, it's what you do that makes you a good or a bad person. From what I've seen? You don't qualify.
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Why did he feel so lost and alone even when he was among supposed friends? That question always popped into his mind around Eight, Yangus, and Jessica. There were times he did feel they were his friends, but other times he was jealous because of how close they could all be. In reality, he wanted friends he could open up to, but he realized that was foolish because of what he was. No one would ever care about him or so he made himself believe. Even around his "friends", those thoughts persisted. The times he did open himself, he felt like a fool or as if they group didn't care. Sure King Trode talked to him once, but that was all. As if the old man cared about him, what nonsense.
Even now, he questions why he's beginning to care about Lloyd or open up to Trunks. He didn't want to do this, yet he was doing it. Why? They don't care or wouldn't care, why are they trying to convince him that they care or act as if they know him? Fools. All of them fools. They know nothing.]
...Don't act as if you know me so well. You know nothing about me. [He glares at Trunks, it's both one of anger and sadness at the same time.] Your high and mighty attitude not only disgusts me, but your attitude of pretending to care is quite nauseating.
Also I'm very aware of my humanity, but I'm content the way I am. I enjoy my life the way it is. So don't think your little preaching will make me have a change of heart. Let me be very clear, it won't. You can keep flapping your mouth, going on about this or that about feelings. But face reality, you can't make people change that easily.
In fact, most will look at you as a self-righteous idiot who tries too hard.
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[if you start charging up again he's pretty sure he can get you out the nearest opening. Bring it.]
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I'm not wallowing, you twat. And why do you insist on doing these things or thinking as though you can care for someone you hardly know? It's a bit pathetic, wouldn't you agree? So go on and keep lying to yourself. Tell yourself actually care when it's only that self-righteous attitude thinking you need to out of pity for someone you believe is beneath you.
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[he gets up, and by God if you try stopping him from going out that door he will hit you and not even feel bad about it. It's his body you're in, after all.]
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[in fact he sounds pissed off by that implication.]
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[Try following him and he will likely go for evasion.]
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[And yeah, he'll do just that.]
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[You might have all his raw power right now, but Trunks has a couple things going for him, finesse and experience. Once he whirls and walks out the door, he flash-steps, moving faster than an inexperienced eye can detect.]
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