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[Well, so much for feeling better finally.

Ioder looks a bit worried when he comes up on the network this evening. He's fidgeting, tugging at little strands of blonde below his ear and looking for all the world like an anxious child waiting for news of something.]

Ah... just... in case anyone is looking for her, my cousin Estellise seems to have left. Her name is no longer on the residency list and I can't get through to her voice mail.

[He forces a smile, though, as if trying to convince himself of something that he's struggling to believe is true.]

But... I'm sure it's just temporary. Yuri came back, after all.

[There's a little more fidgeting, and the forced smile quickly fades. He hesitates, but after a moment he reaches forward and turns the feed off]

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[ Siiiiigh. Life y so hard. ]

Hmmmn...

... it feels kind of strange, not having Estelle around to add her own comments to our musings here.

... I do miss hearing her voice. Living with her was a privilege I never had back home.

Really? What happened, political issues and all on your end?

[ He can't really say he's surprised, though, considering that Flynn was probably her only other regular visitor... ]

Yes. Because we were both candidates, Alexei was adamant that we not have any extended contact.

... though looking back at certain events now, I realize Alexei was adamant Estellise not have any extended contact with anyone, and his reasons were very selfish and power driven indeed.

I feel as though I could never do enough to make it up to her, letting that go on for so long right under my nose. Had I been aware...

... not much you can do about the past, really. All the could haves, would haves and should haves in the world won't get you anywhere.

Just focus on what you can do now.

I'm aware, and I will try.

Good.

... besides, I doubt Estelle would blame you at all for it. Really, none of us realized how deep this whole mess went.

No, I'm certain she wouldn't. I'm afraid that only assuages my guilt so much, but I'm grateful none the less that my cousin is such a forgiving and kind person regardless of the trails she's been put through.

[ Feel that light bonk on your head? That's Yuri smacking the back of your head. ]

Stop feeling so guilty about it then, you dork. There's no problem if Estelle already forgave you, right?