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9th Unison Attack - Really? - Voice

[Backdated to just a little while after Guy's post.]

Why didn't you tell me? You all knew so....so why? [And give her a proper answer instead of just "we didn't want you to worry". It may be why, but she won't accept it. Not after all the times they got mad at her for hiding things. Sorry Zelda, you're lumped in since you were there and awake and put her in your house to help protect her and Sheena.]

Why...? [There's a whine from Caramel and the sounds of a chair being pushed back. A couple of footsteps, then nothing.]

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Ahh, well, I was pretty wanted for my position as Chosen, y'know?

[Sort of. At least for people wanting him to use his position to help them out. It's not like they actually wanted him]

It's hard to believed you were shunned for it. I just figured it had to be because of where you were but I could be wrong.

Huh? What do you mean~? I always care!

Hmmm. Maybe it was because Sylvarant was the declining world. I don't think people would have treated me differently if I'd grown up in Palmacosta instead of Iselia...

[She stares at the SFC. Was he just pretending not to care? So that she'd get mad at him? It's possible...]

...I know. I don't think you always like to show it though.

[Oops. He hadn't been thinking. Learning that Colette may not be as naive as he guessed must have thrown him for a bigger loop than he thought.]

Well y'know, some people are squirrely when they find out others care.

[Like him.]

Squirrely? [And then she makes him doubt that again by being, well, her.]

[Yup, pretty much.]

You know, uncomfortable.

[This is hitting way too close to home...]

Oh.

[Hm....How many people does she know who are uncomfortable when they find out others care?]

I guess they aren't used to it... [That is others caring about them.]

Yeah, yeah, like that. Don't worry about it, angel-hunny~

[W o w he'd really screwed that one up. How'd Colette catch on? Well, really he should probably be asking himself why she hadn't caught onto his act sooner. She's like him. Maybe not the exact same hardships and definitely a lot nicer, but she knows the problems surrounding being a Chosen, the stigma, the pressure.

Well, maybe it's not the end of the world if she knows more about it. Maybe Colette is one of the only people who'd ever understand.]

But y'know... I mean, if you ever wanted to talk about anything...

[He trails off, not sure what else to say. Reaching out for his own sake has never been his strong suit.]

[Huh? Well...She'd always thought she could talk to him about anything; she just always forgot to whenever something came up. She thought he was busy and managed to talk herself out of talking to him about it or he was asleep...Something always came up.]

Of course I'll talk to you! You can talk to me about anything too, if you want.

[There's quite a pause as Zelos makes double - no, triple certain that the filter on the conversation is private and that his door is locked so none of his housemates will come barging in. Not that Zelda barges, but still.]

...Maybe about, y'know, Chosen... things.

[Suddenly Zelos is about as articulate as Lloyd.]

[She smiles softly, though Zelos can't see. Laughing very quietly a little, because Zelos is acting kinda silly.]

I said anything Zelos, and I meant it. We can talk about Chosen things if you want.

Well I wasn't sure. I mean, it's a touchy subject sometimes, y'know? Being fated to die and all...

[He's... not actually sure what he wants to bring up, but just the fact that he can with Colette is a little comforting. Or completely terrifying, he's still trying to work out which.]

Yeah...But we didn't actually die!

[At least, not yet. They'll probably die someday.]

We broke that fate.

I know, I know, you're right, but...

[He takes a breath. Here it is, now or never. He won't be able to bring himself to bring it up again if he doesn't set a precedent now.]

It's weird, isn't it? Thinking you're really apart from the world for so long and then having to be part of it suddenly? Knowing you're gonna live? And not just like a regular person, but way longer? I mean, look at Kratos, look at Yuan and Mithos. They're thousands and thousands of years old thanks to the crystals. So you and I, Presea and Lloyd...

[They might well live forever.]

I...After I met Lloyd, I wanted to live. I wanted to be normal, instead of being apart from everyone. But I knew that that couldn't happen, so I spent the years with them pretending the only thing that was different is that I was the Chosen and they weren't.

And I never thought about that. I was just so happy I could spend more time with them that I didn't realize that...that the four of us might live longer than Genis and the Professor. I thought that Genis and the Professor would live longer than the rest of us, but I never thought that our crystals would make us live longer than we would otherwise.

[After thinking that she'll die at 16, living to be over a hundred sounds really scary. Especially since they wouldn't age or anything, it'd just be their friends dying...]

But...if we do live for a long time, doesn't that give us more time to make sure we set the world right?

I guess it does, but...

[He sighs heavily.]

I never wanted to live that long. I never thought I would, y'know? I mean, we knew about you. The king and pope and I anyway. I hate to say but I went right along with the plan to get you assassinated because I was scared. I didn't wanna be the one to go on a journey, especially not since I knew what was up with Cruxis already, not to mention the Renegades. Without ever having met you, I wanted you to fail so I didn't have to activate my crystal or do any of that. And if you'd succeeded it wouldn't have mattered anyway. We'd all be lifeless beings and wouldn't care. I wasn't supposed to live even this long.

[He gives a wane chuckle, sardonic and self deprecating.]

Of course after I did meet you, I couldn't go through with it. You're way too sweet, Colette. Just my luck...

[How is it that he's able to talk about this? He'd kept it inside for so long but now it just comes bursting out readily. It's so unlike him.]

I can't say I would have done the same thing if I'd been the Chosen of the flourishing world instead of the Chosen of the declining world, but I understand wanting to live. It's okay to be scared sometimes, Zelos.

[What was that he was saying about her being way too sweet?]

If I'd had a choice, I wouldn't have wanted to go on the journey either. Not being supposed to live this long shouldn't stop you from living now, right?

[Well of course she wouldn't have done the same thing. Colette started out caring about others. And maybe it's okay to be scared sometimes, but really... if she knew just how much he ran away or kept hidden out of fear, he's pretty certain she'd sing a different tune about it being okay to be scared.

Again he bottles up, doesn't mention it, pretends its okay. He can't stand that down tone in Colette's voice, he can't stand knowing that talking like this is making her upset. He shouldn't have brought it up. He's not sure even why he did, even if... well, it was a bit nice to be able to speak candidly with someone who understands at least some of the things he went through.]

Of course not! I'm totally planning on living~ You better be too, Colette~

[She's hidden things out of fear too, though...]

Of course! [She pauses.] And...I'd...like to talk like this again. If you don't mind... [Even though she's pretty sure she's why he's switched tones. Doing it again might make it easier for both of them, right? Sure it wasn't exactly the same, but that's...well, it's probably the one normal thing about them. They aren't the same; they haven't gone through exactly the same things. But that is, in it's own way, a comfort to Colette.

Being different is normal, just not...as different from everyone else as they were or are.]

[Whoops, she caught him. Figures. It was a pretty abrupt change, but... well, he supposes he can be honest now. In for one gald, might as well be in for the whole bag.]

Any time, Angel-hunny. I guess I'm just used to being open about this kind of thing. It might take a little practice.

[Yeah. Colette lets out a small noise of agreement.]

It probably does. So...talk to you later?

Yeah. Later, Colette.

[His voice has an uncommonly genuine quality to it when he says that, affectionate in a platonic way. Almost familial.]

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