Don't give a shit! It's what got me this far. There's not much of my life you could call not crazy. A mutant, have his own lusus, actually live, and think he can hide his blood? How crazy is that? A mutant who thinks he could make something of himself - and okay, so I did have some stupid ideas, but - one who didn't just want to be a leader, but became one, of a team comprised of trolls from across the entire hemospectrum, including the heiress herself, and succeeded. I led them through that game and fought tooth and nail to get whatever respect I did, and we won, in basic form. I mean shit got screwed up besides and I know I seriously dropped the ball more than once, but we got that much done with more success than any other session I've heard of.
Then when shit hit the fan on the meteor post-game, and people started murdering, yeah, I was scared shitless. Who wouldn't be? Especially when Gamzee joined in, who I never would have expected it from until he crashed hard into stone cold sobriety. I was terrified. I thought I was going to die, to say nothing of the teammates who did. It just kind of--clicked, suddenly, when the rest of us met up with him, and I did it, and we hugged, and that was that.
And on top of that--after everything--I've looked at murder, and what it's caused for me and my teammates and friends here and everything, and I've decided that killing is shit. Nine times out of ten it doesn't get anything good done, and even when it does, it's still hard.
I am the sorriest excuse for a troll you'll ever see, but this works for me, and I'm not changing.
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Don't give a shit! It's what got me this far. There's not much of my life you could call not crazy. A mutant, have his own lusus, actually live, and think he can hide his blood? How crazy is that? A mutant who thinks he could make something of himself - and okay, so I did have some stupid ideas, but - one who didn't just want to be a leader, but became one, of a team comprised of trolls from across the entire hemospectrum, including the heiress herself, and succeeded. I led them through that game and fought tooth and nail to get whatever respect I did, and we won, in basic form. I mean shit got screwed up besides and I know I seriously dropped the ball more than once, but we got that much done with more success than any other session I've heard of.
Then when shit hit the fan on the meteor post-game, and people started murdering, yeah, I was scared shitless. Who wouldn't be? Especially when Gamzee joined in, who I never would have expected it from until he crashed hard into stone cold sobriety. I was terrified. I thought I was going to die, to say nothing of the teammates who did. It just kind of--clicked, suddenly, when the rest of us met up with him, and I did it, and we hugged, and that was that.
And on top of that--after everything--I've looked at murder, and what it's caused for me and my teammates and friends here and everything, and I've decided that killing is shit. Nine times out of ten it doesn't get anything good done, and even when it does, it's still hard.
I am the sorriest excuse for a troll you'll ever see, but this works for me, and I'm not changing.