03 - the morning after we talked all night of dreams, we stepped lightly - [Video]

[preciousmemories]

[All that's shown on the feed at first is Tatara's face; there's a dark smudge followed by へーき、へーき (It's fine, it's fine) on his forehead, and he looks rather worried. There's also a monocle, mustache, and various tired lines painted onto his face.

But that's not the important part. There's a moment of rustling, then the SFC falls into his lap, showing that someone (Anna) has tied his coat into a bow, trapping his arms at his side.]

Can someone come untie me? I woke up like this.

[It looks like he's back in HOMRA now, though he has no idea when he got here.]

Has anything important happened?

[No one's left, right? ...King, Kusanagi-san, please don't hit him on the head for sleeping so much.]

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[preciousmemories]

[Does that really matter? Anna was forced to be older than she looks. Shiro is Shiro, even if he's also Weismann.

Getting him to admit that that changes anything would be hard, Shiro.]

Then you're better prepared to make sure this doesn't happen again, right?

[If he really is immortal. Somehow he doubts he's let another King kill him before.]

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[parasolspinning]

[It does make him decades older than everyone he associates with though. He finds that odd, at times.]

To be honest I don't really know how to end what's already in motion.

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[preciousmemories]

[He doesn't tend to act like it though.]

That's what life is about, isn't it? Learning new things?

[He thinks you can do it, Shiro. If you try.]

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[parasolspinning]

[He acted like a big kid even before he was a King.]

Well yes... but my research has stagnated, and I wouldn't even know where to begin if I made it back.

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[preciousmemories]

[Don't most guys? I mean...Weismann was a dork, yep.]

Why not from the beginning again? Maybe you missed something way back then.

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[parasolspinning]

[He was.]

It's possible. But all of that is gone now, anyway. The bombings saw to that.

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[preciousmemories]

Then just start over. Examine the Slate, if you think it'll help.

[He rubs the back of his head.]

I was never a King, so I'm afraid I can't really give you pointers for that. But trying won't hurt more than it'll help, right?

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[parasolspinning]

No, I don't suppose it would hurt anything. I did really want people to be happy... I was striving for freude -- joy, happiness.

I still want that, but when I lost so much I thought I lost my chance as well.

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[preciousmemories]

You can always try to make people happy, even if you know you won't be there much longer.

[That's part of why that particular hobby has stuck for so long.]

Losing so much just makes it that much harder to try again. It doesn't mean you can't try.

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[parasolspinning]

... how... do you pick yourself back up again? After running away from it for so long, I don't know if I could ever face my own heartache.

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[preciousmemories]

[He has to think for a moment. He hasn't really been left behind by someone he really truly cared about, but...]

I think I'd remember what those people would have wanted. I'd remember the times we had together, and the friends I still have. If it was too hard to face on my own, I'd face it with my friends. Even if they weren't there or didn't know the person as well as I did.

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[parasolspinning]

... I'm not sure I can do that. When my sister died, I felt as if I had died as well, yet I kept on living in some... faux imitation of life, tormented for decades by a memory.

[As much as he wants to move on, he feels he got no closure, with Claudia or Daikaku, even though the latter was still alive.]

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[preciousmemories]

[Dammit I wrote this and then it died Hm...]

I'm not sure if anything else I can say would help. I've never really been in that position.

[Sure, he got abandoned by his parents, but he was found by a nice couple and got adopted. It worked out. King and HOMRA were the first things he wanted to cling too though...How would he react to losing them? All of them.

He shakes his head.]

Maybe you should try asking someone else about that; someone who got left behind by someone else. Someone who they would have followed if they tried to leave and didn't tell them to leave them alone.

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[parasolspinning]

No, I understand. I can't imagine many people have been. Immortality is... strange as it is uncommon.

But... I'll consider it. Thank you anyway, for what advice you could give.

... you ah... should probably clean your face off.

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[preciousmemories]

I'm sorry I couldn't help more.

[Oh right. His face. He gives Shiro an apologetic smile.]

Right. See you later then?

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[parasolspinning]

It's fine.

Yes, I'll see you later.

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[preciousmemories]

[Going off to clean his face then.

This means he gets to cook for another person, doesn't it? Hopefully Shiro won't mind all the red food...]