5th Memory ✧ dream

[demonicbookworm]

Warnings: death and betrayal... and spoilers for ToI?

The demon is smiling. Soon his dream will come true. The world will return to what it once was. It will look just like in the stories his mother told him. There will be only one world and his beloved Inanna will help him make this wish come true.

His smile widens. Finally, after all those battles, after he became the Overlord, he will lead his people to the world of their dreams. Finally, the new, perfect world is in his reach. All he has to do now is to use the Power of Creation.

...But it takes only one moment to crush all his hopes, to destroy everything he believed in.

He’s been stabbed in the back with a sword. His sword.

He manages to turn around. It’s her. She did it to him. And she is begging for forgiveness now. Her hands are shaking and the beautiful eyes of the goddess are filled with tears. She claims that she had no other choice. That the world he wishes to created would be a world of chaos!

There is anger in his eyes... no it’s rage. She betrayed him. He loved her so much and she betrayed him. It doesn’t matter she cries now, it doesn’t matter she is begging for his forgiveness!

It doesn’t matter at all.

She betrayed him. She didn’t believe in him at all... She didn’t trust him at all. But he did. He loved her, he trusted her... he didn’t want to lose her!

And now he is dying. She stabbed him. Nothing matters anymore.

Betrayal hurts even more than dying.

And even Durandal, his companion... Even he wanted his death!

...In the end he couldn’t trust anyone, could he?

He was such a fool.

Without a second thought, with the rest of his strength he breaks the sword in two and stabs Inanna with it.

This is the end.

I was so foolish.

He feels as if his own soul is breaking apart, torn with despair.

✧

When Ruca wakes up it takes him a long moment to realize that it was only a dream.

He shakes his head.

No, it wasn't only a dream. It was one of Asura's memories.

A memory he didn't really want to remember...

Comments

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[demonicbookworm]

_{[he nods, too.]}

Yeah...

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[coolerthansora]

...I guess that doesn't make it any less confusing sometimes.

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[demonicbookworm]

But... I'm probably worrying about that too much. That person... he isn't me.

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[coolerthansora]

You're not him, but you have his memories. And... Well, memories are important for who you are, I think. It's hard to just ignore some of them even if they don't belong.

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[demonicbookworm]

You're right about that... But I can't forget about who I am now. I have to move on and live my own life, even if I have those memories.

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[coolerthansora]

...yeah.

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[demonicbookworm]

...So, um...

_{[suddenly awkward.]}

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[coolerthansora]

Ah, sorry.

[He's not sure what he's apologizing for. Getting too interested? It's all sort of... familiar to him.]

You probably- just wanna get your mind off it.

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[demonicbookworm]

There's no need to apologize... I'm not sure why I'm even saying all of this. It must be boring to listen to me...

_{[guess who still didn't notice you actually might be interested in this.]}

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[coolerthansora]

Boring? I didn't think so.

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[demonicbookworm]

...You didn't?

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[coolerthansora]

Well, I mean...

I used to have dreams like that, too.

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[demonicbookworm]

R-really?

_{[now he's interested to hear more about that]}

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[coolerthansora]

You saw- my nightmare, didn't you?

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[demonicbookworm]

_{[Ruca nods, making an apologetic look.]}

Yeah... I did.

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[coolerthansora]

I used to.. dream Sora's memories.

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[demonicbookworm]

So Sora is... someone you used to be?

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[coolerthansora]

[Roxas swallows and then... nods.]

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[demonicbookworm]

I see...

_{[He already met Sora but he doesn't mention that. Instead he wonders if it would be possible for him to meet Asura here...]}

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[coolerthansora]

But I'm not, anymore.

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[demonicbookworm]

Of course... you are you. That's obvious, isn't it?

_{[but it took him so long to figure out that he shouldn't confuse himself with Asura.]}

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[coolerthansora]

..right.

I just get- scared sometimes. Not everyone sees it that way.

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[demonicbookworm]

Why?... You are you. No one can tell you that it's not true.

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[coolerthansora]

There are people who think- that I'm supposed to be Sora. That I have to go back to that.

[He shakes his head.]

I don't agree with it, but... there it is.

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[demonicbookworm]

Even if they say that, you can't go back to being him. You are no longer him.