[audio] ramblings

[finallycowboys]

It's such a bloody shame when one's basic skill sets are completely obsolete in this city and island. Death was considered one of the few things in life as a certainty, and yet here we are, unable to die properly.

[ a sort of low groan, like he's nursing a migraine. ]

Being an assassin isn't easy... quite under appreciated bunch we are, really! You think you just...just... go up to a bloke and stick a sword through his beating heart being stealthy-like and all, but no... no! That's not how it works, you idgit... [ yes, he just said 'idgit'. ]

There's a finesse, a sort of grace in the kill. It's an art, really, and a bit of showmanship if you're not the only two there. There's nothing like a good audience to motivate you if you ask me, and I'll bet you're asking me... how is murder art? How do you sleep at night? Just an unmoral sack of fucking shit you are, is what you're thinking I'll bet. Well... I... [ mumbles, trailing off a little. ]

I brush my teeth real proper holding that brush at a 45 degree angle. Not too hard for that makes the gums bleed something fierce and that's quite unhealthy I hear. Then get undressed...heh, then dressed again into something proper for sleep, perhaps read a couple chapters of the good ol' Dostoyevsky, and that's it! I sleep like a big baby is how I fucking sleep, I'll tell you that much!

Ugh... I need to stop drinking and find something better to occupy my bloody time with...

Comments

[Video]

[closedcircuit]

But can you really say that the people you kill deserve to die? And if you can't...then how can you kill them?

Being an assassin isn't like being a soldier.

[Video] SHJDJSD SORRY SO LATE WOW

[finallycowboys]

That... hm, that one's a real toughie, I'll admit. While it's nothing like being a soldier where you're trying to shut out the fact that these people you're gunnin' down don't deserve to die, you sort of have to force yourself into that mindset.

Trust me, if you aren't raised that way from a young age, it's quite impossible to do it in your adult life. I've seen it. Not a pretty sight.

[Video]

[closedcircuit]

Sometimes, as a soldier... Things can be black and white, it's not always artificial.

But that's not the point. Even if you were raised to be an assassin, I still think...you can be more now.

[It isn't too late for anyone.]

[Video]

[finallycowboys]

[a sort of bitter smile.]

The possibility, as slim as it is, does remain. I agree. But do you ever get the feeling that sometimes you were just meant to do something your whole life?

[Video]

[closedcircuit]

What I'm meant to do is make the world a better place and fight for the causes that need my support.

You can do better than assassin.