caughtinanetwork | A question | backdated to the 18th

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A question | backdated to the 18th

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[Somehow, Sola has managed to actually put a filter on this post. It took him quite awhile but it's very important to him that no one else see. He doesn't want them to worry. In fact, he's sort of hiding out in the bathroom of Johnny's apartment to make the post.

The young Hylian's face is drawn and he's rubbing his hand as if to try and get the circulation going after sleeping on it funny.]

Umm... hi everyone. Only you three can see this, I think. I mean, I hope so. But I had sort of a question since I don't know...

Have any of you ever, um... started... getting kind of numb o-or... kind of see-through?

[It sounds ridiculous when he says it out loud and Sola crinkles his nose as how strange but he has to know.]

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I'm scared. I-I don't know if anyone can help, that's why I'm asking you guys...

[He shakes his head, looking aside.]

I don't want my dads or Johnny to worry though.

[...so it's a replica problem?] Sola, what's wrong?

Well, I... I keep... fading...

[He keeps his eyes averted from the camera.]

I-I'm sure it'll just go away. I think.

[It's been a long time. He's fairly certain it's getting worse.]

You don't sound so sure...

[And suddenly a look of empathy crosses her face, not because she has any idea what's happening to him, but because she's starting to understand how he feels about it.]

Look, I- I don't really know what's happening to you, and I'm sorry for that, but what I do know is that running away from it will only make things worse.

I'm not running! I just-

[He chews his lower lip for a moment, still rubbing the circulation back in his fingers.]

I don't think there's anyone that can fix it and I'd rather not worry my dads or Johnny or anyone.

[Her face is growing increasingly concerned and serious. If there's help to be had for him she definitely wants him to find it, but this is just screaming 'spectacular backfire' to her.]

Maybe there's not, [there certainly wasn't for her] but that won't make them worry less if you start to hide it. Believe me, I've tried it this way.

You said you'd never felt like this so how could you have tried?

[There's a slight accusatory tone but really he is looking for an answer.]

[She doesn't miss his accusatory tone, and there's a bit of a pause before she continues.]

...It was when I found out what I was made for. It left me with a big decision to make about where I really belonged, and I decided to not tell my friends about it because they didn't know what I am. They got involved anyway and it hurt them even more than it had to because I tried to protect them from something I couldn't.

[She keeps her gaze trained on him afterwards, keeping her response short to avoid getting off track.]

Sure, they may not notice now, not for a while even. But if this gets out of hand, don't leave them feeling like they could've done more.

[Honestly, he'd rather get off track.]

What were you made for..? I'm sorry, that must have been really bad.

[She silently accepts the apology with a morose smile. There isn't much more she can say to make her point that would be repetition now, anyway.]

That much was inevitable... I just ended up making things worse.

But it's just...

[He's quiet for a very long moment. When he speaks again it's soft, almost difficult for the SFC to pick up.]

I know there isn't anything anyone can do. Master Ganondorf's gone.. and... whatever happens to me, if something happens to me, then... well, they can blame me for not saying something, instead of feeling helpless that there really isn't anything.

[This is the logic he's come up with. It's not great, but... really it's the only thing he has to work with when he has no real hope for himself.]

I understand. I can't help but think back on how everything happened and what I could have done differently, though.

Trying to make that choice for them was probably one of my biggest mistakes.

[Her words are sincere but her expression is fairly unreadable, however. All she can really do for him is offer her advice, what he does with it is up to him.]

I don't think this is the same. It's... not really a choice.

[He leans down on the desk his SFC is perched on.]

...I'm sorry. I-I didn't mean to make you sad, I just...

[I'm just scared...]

No it's alright, I know how it feels to not know quite where to turn.

[This is a video feed an therefore she can't hug him, so she hopes a smile will do, no matter how small.]

[The smile helps a little. Xion's so nice, he wishes he could get to know her better before...]

...hey... could you do be a favor?

...What kind?

[She sounds hesitant, but finds herself more surprised he's actually asking something of her.]

I just, um...

...

If I... if I vanish, could... could you make sure people know it's.. it's not their fault? Especially Johnny...

I'm sorry, I know you probably don't know him but.. but he's my matesprit and he thinks everything bad is always his fault because he's kind of stupid sometimes. I just don't want him to think that...

[And he doesn't have anyone else to ask. He's not close enough with Otoha even if he'd probably be best to ask, Zelda he can't bring himself to tell, and Link's asleep. He likes Xion, but he feels this is still asking so much of her when they've only really spoken once.]

..I'm sorry..

...I'll make sure of it.

[She's not going to lie and say everything's going to be okay. The people he cares about deserve to know the truth.]

Don't apologize. It's something I wish I had and I'm glad to help you with it.

Thank you.

[He rubs the back of his neck, feeling exhausted now that the pins and needles hive finally passed and his morbid thoughts settled. Maybe he'll just go take a nap.]

I'm going to go... thank you again Xion. I'm sorry.

[With those words, he quietly slips off the SFC.]

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