caughtinanetwork | Fifteenth promise; text

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Fifteenth promise; text

A day to celebrate love, huh. Is anyone else missing someone special from home today?

[Personally, she'll be spending it curled up on her couch, cuddled up with Sacra and watching whatever Vatheon's version of sappy love movies are.]

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I do. And I don't think anyone would hold that against you.

...But do you think it's selfish? I really want to see my friends here but I'm starting to see how dangerous Vatheon is.

But you don't want to be alone either...

Well, we all have bouts of selfishness. If our friends do come here, it's not our doing. Our wishes don't bring them here.

Then what do you do when your friends aren't here? What do you do when you're feeling lonely and just want to see them?

Because, that's all I want to do lately. I just want to see them.

I don't have a good answer, really. But sometimes I close my eyes and pretend they're with me. Sometimes I talk out loud to them. Other times, I go see the friends I've made here, and remind myself I'm not alone.

I see...

I know I made a lot of friends here and I know that I've gotten pretty close to two people too! But I guess I'm envious to see that other people from their world are here too.

I think...I'm jealous.

It's okay to be jealous, I think. At least a little bit. It's natural, right?

I guess...

I use to be so jealous of my friends who were so much stronger than me but...I don't think I should disappoint them even more! They're not here so I got to do my best to make them proud!

...Somehow!

You'll figure it out, I think. It sounds like you're off to a good start already.

Well, I got to.

...What other choice do I have?

Give up. But that's not a very good idea.

Nope, it isn't!

That's why I want to do my best to keep on going even...even if it might make me sad too...

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