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[replicatedcourage]

 [Sola appears on the screen, face puffy and expression desolate. His eyes don't meet the camera as he speaks, low and halting.]

I just wanted to say, I'm really sorry for hurting anyone...

[He rubs his eyes with the back of his hand, sniffling a bit before continuing.]

You won't have to worry about me anymore. I-I won't bother anybody, so... just... forget me. It's better that way.

Zelda, especially, I-I'm sorry I'm not...

[He swallows hard, turning a little further away from the camera.]

I'm sorry I'm not him. I hope he finds you, and that you can be happy. I-I promise, he... he loves you very much.

[He sits there, back to the camera, for an interminable moment, sorrow plain in the hunch of his shoulders. With a small swallow, he turns off the feed.]

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[a_violent_end]

[Shizuo waits for a response for a (short) period of time, and when it becomes apparent that Sola isn't responding (quick enough), he leaves one more message.]

Nobody wants you to disappear, not even Zelda, so you better cut the shit or I'll come after you with a bench, again.

[In other words, don't mope, there are people who care about you, Sola.]

[replicatedcourage]

[Nope, nothing. He's currently being held by Ion and can't come to the computer right now, though I guess so Shizuo it just seems like silence.]

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[replicatedcourage]

[Hours later, Sola's calm enough to check the SFC, though there's still a sad undertone to his voice.]

Sorry. I'm okay now, so don't hit me with a bench, okay Shizuo?

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[a_violent_end]

Fine.

[...]

I'm glad you feel better.

[Even if he still sounds sad, that's better than saying he's going to disappear.]

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[replicatedcourage]

Thanks.

[Long pause]

I'm not going to go anywhere, but... um... I think it might be better if I stayed away from Zelda, after all...

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[a_violent_end]

Maybe you both need space, or something. Just don't try to disappear or anything like that. Anyway, I'm sure whatever it is will be fine soon.

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[replicatedcourage]

[It's more than that. It's just too hard for Sola to be around her, to love her as much as he does and know she doesn't feel the same and never will.]

...

Could you just.. tell her I'm sorry? I can't deliver milk anymore or anything. I'll give the bottle back, if she wants it.

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[a_violent_end]

Yeah...I'll let her know.

[He doesn't really know what to say or how to be more comforting. There's a little pause, as though he wants to say more, before he hangs up.]

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[replicatedcourage]

[Sola stares at the little blinking notifier that Shizuo's hung up and wonders why it hurts just as bad to tell someone as it does to make the initial decision.]