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caughtinanetwork2012-03-02 07:59 pm
withoutasign) wrote in caughtinanetwork2012-03-02 07:59 pm
Sermon Two
[Signless has chosen his location carefully; when he turns on the video function, there's a wall of water behind him, and a school of brightly colored tropical fish swimming past. He's very clearly in the bubble again.]
My friends, today I want to talk to you about fear.
[His voice is low and soothing, his story-telling voice.]
I have known great fear in my time. In my world, the color of my blood was a source of fear, something that drove me into hiding for a long time. Then, when I dreamed of the world that could be, rather than the world that was, I was afraid again... afraid that I would never see what I knew we were capable of come to pass. I was afraid to speak out, afraid to make a ripple in the still, stagnant waters of our society, and tried instead to live my meager little life underneath the notice of the highbloods.
But then I saw what my silence was doing, what those in similar positions were suffering, and I knew I could not stay silent. I could not sit idly by while our world rotted away from its very core, while its corruption bled away the talents and very lives of so many trolls who had done nothing beyond being hatched the wrong color. I could not wait for another to come along and demand change, or I would wait the rest of my life. I needed to cast aside my fear, to find a reserve of strength within me, and rise to what my world needed me to be.
[His voice falls, becoming hushed and soft, almost painfully honest, and he looks down, his cloak hiding his eyes.]
I was terrified. Casting off fear is one of the most difficult things I have ever done. Fear is something I knew, its cold comfort as familiar to me as my guardian's face. It would have been... easy to live my entire life in fear, I thought.
[He looks up then, and his eyes are burning, his voice strong once more.]
I thought that fear was a cloak to hide me, but it was a chain I wore around my neck. When the fear was gone, when I made the decision to cast it aside, I have never felt so free in my entire life. It was how I imagine it must feel to wake up one morning with wings, and look out the window into an endless sky. When the fear was gone, I could breathe a deep breath for the first time in my life, and look to the future not as an ominous, foreboding thing, but as a path bathed in light and redemption.
I am not afraid any longer, Vatheon. This is my home now, and it is worth fighting for. I will not be driven out of my home again. I will not let fear control me.
My friends, today I want to talk to you about fear.
[His voice is low and soothing, his story-telling voice.]
I have known great fear in my time. In my world, the color of my blood was a source of fear, something that drove me into hiding for a long time. Then, when I dreamed of the world that could be, rather than the world that was, I was afraid again... afraid that I would never see what I knew we were capable of come to pass. I was afraid to speak out, afraid to make a ripple in the still, stagnant waters of our society, and tried instead to live my meager little life underneath the notice of the highbloods.
But then I saw what my silence was doing, what those in similar positions were suffering, and I knew I could not stay silent. I could not sit idly by while our world rotted away from its very core, while its corruption bled away the talents and very lives of so many trolls who had done nothing beyond being hatched the wrong color. I could not wait for another to come along and demand change, or I would wait the rest of my life. I needed to cast aside my fear, to find a reserve of strength within me, and rise to what my world needed me to be.
[His voice falls, becoming hushed and soft, almost painfully honest, and he looks down, his cloak hiding his eyes.]
I was terrified. Casting off fear is one of the most difficult things I have ever done. Fear is something I knew, its cold comfort as familiar to me as my guardian's face. It would have been... easy to live my entire life in fear, I thought.
[He looks up then, and his eyes are burning, his voice strong once more.]
I thought that fear was a cloak to hide me, but it was a chain I wore around my neck. When the fear was gone, when I made the decision to cast it aside, I have never felt so free in my entire life. It was how I imagine it must feel to wake up one morning with wings, and look out the window into an endless sky. When the fear was gone, I could breathe a deep breath for the first time in my life, and look to the future not as an ominous, foreboding thing, but as a path bathed in light and redemption.
I am not afraid any longer, Vatheon. This is my home now, and it is worth fighting for. I will not be driven out of my home again. I will not let fear control me.
[Private]
...
no
this was dumb
asking this was dumb
i take it back
its nothing important
[Oh yeah, that's definitely Dave freaking out and deciding to wuss out before he even tried.]
[Private]
SHOOSH, LITTLE ONE, SHOOSH.
IT'S JUST ME.
ONLY SIGNLESS.
YOU KNOW I'D NEVER HURT YOU OR TRY TO FRIGHTEN YOU, RIGHT?
SHHHH, IT'S OKAY, I WON'T LET ANYTHING HARM YOU.
[Private] These two are too adorable?!
no
im not afraid of being hurt
or frightened
that aint it
i mean seriously its
stupid
like
dave strider
has the dumbest insecurities that has ever existed in this bubble
its so humiliating
like this is just an unholy amount of uncool
so unholy
that it filled up every hole in the world with its unholy dick
wow that was not a metaphor i wasnt even trying to go for
...
just
ugh
you already know
what color my eyes are
[Private] he's your trolldad, Dave, get used to it
I DON'T.
I'VE NEVER SEEN YOU WITHOUT YOUR GLASSES.
[Private] no. STUBBORN
wait
no
the
...party???
i couldnt exactly get my shades on with feathers for fingers
i also can be remembering everything wrong
i wouldnt be surprised
you know what
wow this is just dumb
please just let me go wallow in self pity because im going to go lie on the floor with my face in the dirt
[Private] YES
THAT WASN'T JUST THE CURSE?
DAVE, THAT'S WONDERFUL! YOUR EYES ARE THE SAME COLOR AS MINE!
[Private] /TSUN
theyre red
theyve always been red
...
what if they think its weird???
[Although he had an inkling that all his close friends were well aware of the state of his eyes. But he couldn't help but feel self conscious about them. At least other kids made sure to treat him differently because of them.]
most kids have
idk
blue
or brown
it isnt normal
[Private] /pap pap
SOME PEOPLE ARE GOING TO THINK IT'S WEIRD, AND AVOID YOU FOR IT.
YOU MIGHT ALWAYS HAVE TO WORK A LITTLE HARDER TO BE ACCEPTED.
BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?
TO HELL WITH THOSE PEOPLE! YOU'RE BETTER OFF WITHOUT THEM!
THE ONES WHO MATTER, LIKE JOHN, WON'T CARE ONE BIT ABOUT THE COLOR OF YOUR EYES, BECAUSE THEY'LL SEE THE INTELLIGENT, CHARMING YOUNG MAN BEHIND THEM. SIMPLE EYE COLOR WON'T CHANGE THEIR OPINIONS OF YOU.
YOU CAN TRY AND HIDE THEM FOR AWHILE LONGER, IF YOU LIKE... I KNOW THAT WHEN I WAS YOUR AGE, I CERTAINLY HID MY BLOOD COLOR AS BEST I COULD.
BUT SOONER OR LATER, IT WILL BE TIME TO BE A MAN AND FACE YOUR DIFFERENCE, AND EMBRACE IT AND MAKE IT YOUR OWN.
YOU CAN DO IT.
I KNOW YOU CAN.
[Private] uguu
i already got that attention before
the shades just made it a little more endurable after
just
i mean
what if they do find it weird
i mean egbert and harley???
pretty sure lalonde knows but thats besides the point
i mean i can seriously give a rats ass about what people think
but i dont think i could deal if they were on the same page as those people and not me
as for embracing it
yeah this week might have to wait
because embracing apparently means
the sun will shit in my eyes if i dare remove these holy beings from my face
[Private]
[Private]
fuck no
shit i trust them with my life
i just dont want to fuck up
and lose them
because that would suck harder then all the times ive died
i guess
im just really scared
and admitting that is embarrassing and im never admitting it again so you better remember that
[Private]
THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH ADMITTING YOU'RE AFRAID, BUT DON'T USE THAT FEAR AS AN EXCUSE TO DO NOTHING, TO LET THEM DRIFT AWAY FROM YOU, SIMPLY SO YOU NEVER HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT LOSING THEM. THAT WOULD BE DOING ALL OF YOU A GRAVE DISSERVICE.
[Private]
i mean
shit that kids shouldnt have even gone through but we did
what the fuck am i supposed to do if i lose them???
hahah
bullshit
those guys will never get rid of me
im the cockroach friend they have to deal with