♠ 09 | video

[beauchevalier]

[In the early hours of the morning, what people will see over their SFCs is a very large room that takes on the appearance of an art studio. Despite the many artistic supplies spread in various locations, the room does house a single man in it. This man is sitting in front of a canvas that doesn't have much on it, yet he's staring very intently at the canvas before setting the brush down. What can be seen is a painting of three hearts; one white, one black, and one gray. After a few moments of staring at his creation, he picks up the SFC which was already switched on prior to him painting this odd picture, the expression on his face rather neutral. Not happy or sad, simply neutral.]

Do call me curious dear Vatheon, but this is something I have been pondering for some time now. Why should we celebrate holidays we don't celebrate back home? Certainly some have been for the amusement of it, but take for instance this one we currently celebrated. For those who don't believe in love, a holiday entirely dedicated to it is seen as ridiculous. But that can be said of all people who don't believe in certain holidays, doesn't it?

Though this holiday especially can also arouse questions within us, particularly to matters of the heart as that seems to be its theme. A few I can think of are: Is there such a thing as true happiness or love? Is the feeling truly there or not? Can the supposed happiness and love gained with another who said they felt the same remain always? Or will it fade away like sand being washed away by the ocean?

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[bufudine]

[Serph stares at Angelo for a long moment. At first, he doesn't understand why Angelo would want to do such a thing. Perhaps he's speaking of a situation in which he needs to get away from someone? That time Sera jumped off the top of Coordinate 136 comes most readily to mind.

But it's Angelo's next words that strike him as odd. "Would you consider saving me."

Like he would jump to die.

The way he says it. It's like there is no larger purpose to it, no people to save, except to die.

His brow draws together in a frown, before he rests a hand on Angelo's shoulder.]

I do not wish to see you die.

[beauchevalier]

[Angelo leans his face away from Serph, perhaps he shouldn't have brought such a subject up. Yet something inside made him think about those times before, the ones where he did think about doing this action. Something always stopped him however, he never understood what it was though. Instinctively however, his hand reaches up for Serph's to grip it gently.]

You're being too kind to someone who doesn't deserve it.

[bufudine]

[Serph's response comes easily.]

I believe you do.

[beauchevalier]

[Angelo reaches forward and caresses Serph's cheek gently, but has a small smirk across his expression too.]

You do realize what you're saying to me, don't you? After learning so much about me and who I am as a person, can you truly believe that I still do?

[bufudine]

[Serph is giving Angelo a Look, not quite a glare, but still an "Angelo you are intruding on Personal Space so stop that" look.]

Yes, I can.

[beauchevalier]

[Nope he's not stopping, at least not for now. He continues stroking Serph's face and enjoys how it feels. He's never touched another man's skin before the way he is now. Perhaps it's the fascination that doesn't make him stop... Yes, that has to be it. It's that same feeling of fascination as the time when they kissed.]

You're the first man I've ever touched this way, I find it rather fascinating. Then again... You've been my first for quite a few things, haven't you?

[Yeah, he's not letting you forget that kiss either by the way.]

[bufudine]

[Serph reaches to grab Angelo's wrist and pull it away from his face. Dude, he'd rather not remember that kiss, thanks B|]

I do not want a repeat. Otherwise, I will respond in violence.

[This is your warning, Angelo.]

[beauchevalier]

[Angelo only smirks and doesn't move when Serph grips his wrist. He maintains some cockiness to his voice too while keeping said smirk on his face.]

Go on and threaten me, I'm not afraid of what you'll do.

[bufudine]

[Serph lets go of Angelo's wrist.]

That was not a threat.

[beauchevalier]

...If you say so.

[He's quiet for a few minutes, then looks at Serph again before opening his mouth to speak.]

You told me once that weren't born, but created by humans. Tell me, do you feel the same things as humans? Or is there a machine under that human-like skin of yours?

[bufudine]

[Serph's gaze goes to his own hand. Does he feel the same things as humans? What do humans feel? ...Well, he did experience a week as a human.

He raises his gaze to Angelo.]

I'm not a machine. I bleed. I feel pain.

[beauchevalier]

[Angelo leans in again towards Serph, but does not touch him. Instead, his face is close to Serph's.]

What about pleasure?

[bufudine]

[Serph leans back, hey, stop that, man.]

My body is the same as a human's.

[So. Yes.]

[beauchevalier]

[He pulls back once more and simply keeps his gaze on him.]

So then what makes you feel good?

[bufudine]

[Serph's mind is in a different place to Angelo's.]

Spending time with friends. Gardening. Swimming.

[Hmm.]

Eating.

[People, that is.]

[beauchevalier]

[Angelo pretty much thought Serph would answer in that way.]

Those are nice, I suppose.

[Says the guy who is inwardly thinking Serph is boring.]

[bufudine]

[Serph tilts his head. Angelo seems disappointed.]

What of you?

[What makes Angelo feels good?]

[beauchevalier]

[Angelo isn't about to lie or half truth his way during this, might as well be honest.]

Wine and gambling naturally, though I do enjoy sexual bonding as well.

[bufudine]

[He thinks he might regret asking this, but...]

Why do you enjoy these?

[beauchevalier]

[He answers again honestly.]

They give me the sensation of pleasure since I can't truly feel it.

[bufudine]

[Serph doesn't believe it, but he doesn't say so. There's a pause before he asks--]

Do you truly feel pain?

[beauchevalier]

[Angelo lays back against the couch and leans himself near Serph once more.]

That depends on the type of pain you're thinking about.

[bufudine]

[Serph keeps his gaze on Angelo's face. If Angelo bothered to ask for definition, it means that the answers aren't all "No". Really, Angelo may as well have told him "Yes."]

The kind when Marcello is involved.

[beauchevalier]

[Angelo leans back and seems to more tense than before, he might even be showing a hint of anger. Of all the things to use against him... He should have never told Serph about Marcello now.]

You don't need to know that.

[bufudine]

[In the face of anger, Serph remains the same as ever. Cool, calm, collected. Angelo's bubbling anger is nothing compared to Heat's, really.

His voice is level, matter-of-fact.]

You feel pain. You feel anger.

[He holds Angelo's gaze with his own.]

You can feel happiness, too.