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3 ♐ Text/Action ♐ Hermit-mode, activtate!

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D --> I apologize to anyone who had to deal with me while I was under the influence of the curse
D --> I was not myself
D --> Normally I am not so
D --> Outgoing

[Translation: "Normally I do not try to get into the metaphorical pants of everyone I interact with. Oh good lord, strike me down now please."]

D --> I do hope you can all forgive me for the foolishness which occurred

[Action at the Highblood Hive]

[Hey, Gamzee, Equius. Guess who didn't come down to make breakfast? Guess who hasn't even come out of his room? Guess who even locked Dural out so that there is now a very aggravated lusus sitting outside of it, her feathers puffed up?]

[Daddy is not feeling well, kids. He knows you can take care of yourselves.]

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2iir?

D --> Greetings Helmsman

II hope that whatever occurred, iit ii2 able two be re2olved.

[...Alright, time to take this out of the public eye.]

D --> I like to believe so
D --> But I shall not push the matter further
D --> I know what the answer is

May II iinquiire a2 two what diid occur?

D --> I believe you are familiar with the riddle that accompanied the curse?
D --> It referred to

D --> The Cavalreaper and I

[He does not like admitting this.]

D --> We had one last discussion
D --> Which perhaps will finally be the end of our interactions with one another

2o that ii2 what happened.

II am 2orry, 2iir.
You do not de2erve 2uch compliicatiion2.

D --> Nothing can be done for it
D --> At least we were finally honest with one another
D --> Which is more than can be said for our previous interactions

D --> I
D --> I am glad things are more simple with you Helmsman
D --> You have been quite a relief in these passing days

IIt ii2 not appropriiate for the Empiire'2 property two be compliicated.
II am 2iimply attemptiing two operate wiithiin proper parameter2.
Appreciiatiion ii2 unnece22ary.

D --> Yet I shall give it regardless

D --> Although this does remind me
D --> The curse has lifted now
D --> Are you fairing well?
d --> Is there anything troubling you?

II am functiional.
My 2y2tem2 have not degraded further 2iince the la2t evaluatiion of them.

II am not okay.

[Alright, angst time over. ~~'Rails before pails.~~ Darkleer is already getting up off of his bed in alarm.]

D --> What is the situation?
D --> I shall come to you as soon as possible

II cannot 2ay.

[ And he has to let Darkleer come to his own conclusions as to what that statement means. He literally couldn't, not unless the Condesce willed it. ]

Upon returniing two my oriigiinal form, II have experiienced a great deal of emotiional turmoiil.
Plea2e do not trouble your2elf wiith thii2 2y2tem.
IIt

II am not worth your iimmediiate concern.

D --> Has the Orphaner been hassling you again?
D --> Blasted fool
D --> I will speak with him then

D --> You are under my care system
D --> It would be a dishonor to not consider your state
D --> I will make my way to your hive with due haste
D --> When I next contact you, please exit as discretely as you can

Plea2e, do not.
IIt ii2 not my place two reque2t thii2, but do not confront hiim.
Plea2e.
Nothiing 2hould have been 2aiid.
Thii2 2y2tem wiill be well.
IIt ii2 not a matter that requiire2 iinterventiion.

D --> I will be there shortly Helmsman

[That lack of color is not a good sign. Immediately, Darkleer opens the window in his room and absconds from the hive he shares with the children in a manner most stealthy. Now to make his way to the communal hive the other lives in...]

Locatiion: roof of Larmliine Apartment2.

[ And hopefully Darkleer doesn't mind coming up there rather than having him come down. The Helmsman is sitting on the rooftop, his knees drawn up to his chest.

Whoops, accidentally BSODing now. ]

[With how quick Darkleer can be, he's there in minutes. There shouldn't be a need to take the stairs, considering how high he can jump, but he might crash through the roof in that course of action. So the stairs it is. When he finally arrives, he doesn't waste any time. In a heartbeat, he's besides the Helmsman, pulling him close and pressing a hand to his face.]

I'm here. Status report?

[ There is a faint electric crackle in the air when the Helmsman is pulled towards Darkleer, like he doesn't entirely have complete control of his psionics. After an entire week without them, it isn't particularly surprising. ]

Functhional.

[ His voice is very small, but it's fairly amazing that he's managed to snap out of the blank state his emotional turmoil had knocked him into to begin with. ]

Functhional. Everything ith. Glory to the Empire. To Her Imperiouth Condethenthion.

Yes. [His voice is quiet and careful.] Glory to the Empire and Her Imperious Condescension.

[The crackle of psionics is ignored. The fact that Signless or any of the other hivemates the Helmsman live with is ignored. None of that matters. Darkleer stays focused on the troll in front of him.]

Have there been any recent changes in your routine, Helmsman?

[Gently, he runs his hand across his cheek, cradling his head.]

Reacquired all thionic capabilitieth...

[ He bites the inside of his cheek hard enough that he makes a pained sound. He couldn't explain himself fully, physically incapable of going against her wishes.

There's a hint of yellow tears gathering in the corners of his eyes. He's not sure why he's having such a sudden breakdown, but he can't stop it now that Darkleer was there. The other man had this strange ability to make him open up even when he didn't want to. ]

[That cannot be the only change to his routine. It can't. Just reacquiring his psionics would not make the Helmsman cry. The last time he had done this, it had been about his programming beginning to fail as more and more of his independence came back. But if the greeting he gave was any indication, he was regressing...]

[Stewing over the dilemma, Darkleer shifts his hand again, thumb ready to swipe away any tears.]

I'm here, Helmsman. I'm here.

[What would make him completely shut down from him when they've been so open before...?]

[ There's another crackle and the Helmsman flinches this time, perhaps startled by his own powers. Facing this issue makes him feel distinctly unwell, and he's terrified that the blueblood is about to see right through him. It had taken so much of his energy to suppress the emotional turmoil that came with everything changing once more, too much energy given that he broke down under the faintest of pressure.

He's not sure why he's crying. He knows he should be pleased that he is Her Helmsman once again. So why was there that part deep inside of him that is screaming to fight and to be free? ]

Quiet, now. Quiet.

[Just repetitions of the same meaningless words. But perhaps the routine will bring some sort of reassurance, so Darkleer just focuses on that and that alone. Settling himself further on the ground, he moves his hands to take the Helmsman's.]

Remember the mental exercises we have done with one another? Remember those. Go through them.

I will stay with you.

[ Quiet, right. He could do quiet. He had spent entire sweeps with the only sound to ever come out of him being the hoarse screams torn from his throat when the battleship shifted into a high power state. And he could focus on a mathematical paradox. An infinite surface area enclosing a finite volume. Breathe. Focus.

He doesn't do it entirely consciously, but he curls in even closer as long moments pass.

And it occurs to him... ]

I don't want thith...

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[private] god I love the santa hat icons

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Nnnnngh need to ask if he can figure it out /flees to plurk

I think it needs to stay on the dl a little longer!

I sent a PM so we'll see!

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