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... It's waxing crescent again.

[That's what he mutters after a while. The camera's facing what looks to be the horizon over the island and floating not too low in the sky is the moon, just a small, sharp sliver of bright white.

For those who recognize the voice, it's undoubtedly Saix speaking, but there's something different about it all the same. It sounds... almost mesmerized, as if he's not quite all there. That's because whoever's been stuck inside of this body can't quite control it yet and thanks to the moon's power, far away or as different as it is from the one back home, Axel can barely focus his mind and body on anything else.

Originally he had intended for this to be a normal video. He wanted to address the rest of the dome the way he used to when he was in his regular body. Maybe if he tossed out a joke or two he would feels better... but he finds that he can't. Not like this.

Something tugs at his chest and off to the side Axel brings a hand to his face, covering his eyes. He doesn't like this... feeling so out of power. After a moment, he speaks up again, his voice slightly grating.]

Someone tell me... How do you know if you have a heart?

And is it worth all the trouble it gives?

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[linefais]

What's wrong?

Hurts too much?

Not so fun anymore?

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[goddammitaxel]

I said shut up!

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[linefais]

You're not answering my questions.

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[goddammitaxel]

And you're not shutting up, which is the greater problem at hand. Why does it matter?

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[linefais]

Because I still want to understand you, obviously.

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[goddammitaxel]

No, it's not fun.

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[linefais]

You'd do well not to focus on the negative things, then.

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[goddammitaxel]

You realize you weren't helping with that, don't you?

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[linefais]

I

can't really help it.

[All this Darkness inside of him which definitely doesn't feel natural to him... it's hard to ignore]

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[goddammitaxel]

What do you mean you can't help it?

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[linefais]

... Something inside me makes it easy to do.

I can't explain it very well either. I guess I don't particularly... care.

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[goddammitaxel]

Are you sure it's not just apathy and having no brain to mouth filter?

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[linefais]

I can't say. I just know that something's messed up in my chest and it makes making my own decisions difficult.

I'm not even sure it's the moon.

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[goddammitaxel]

Well there shouldn't be anything there. I don't know what it could be.

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[linefais]

Maybe when you're back to normal you'll be able to feel it.

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[goddammitaxel]

Right. Back to normal.

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[linefais]

Whatever you want to call it.

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[goddammitaxel]

That's what it is, so that is what it should be called. There's nothing else to call it.]

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[linefais]

I'm not so sure I'd call you 'normal'.

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[goddammitaxel]

I'm more normal than you.

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[linefais]

I'll gladly take that.

I don't want to be normal anyway. Normal's boring.

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[goddammitaxel]

Yes, we all know. Your overall appearance makes that fact very clear.

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[linefais]

What's that supposed to mean?

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[goddammitaxel]

What do you think it means?

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[linefais]

I'll just take it as a compliment towards my dashing good looks.