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... It's waxing crescent again.

[That's what he mutters after a while. The camera's facing what looks to be the horizon over the island and floating not too low in the sky is the moon, just a small, sharp sliver of bright white.

For those who recognize the voice, it's undoubtedly Saix speaking, but there's something different about it all the same. It sounds... almost mesmerized, as if he's not quite all there. That's because whoever's been stuck inside of this body can't quite control it yet and thanks to the moon's power, far away or as different as it is from the one back home, Axel can barely focus his mind and body on anything else.

Originally he had intended for this to be a normal video. He wanted to address the rest of the dome the way he used to when he was in his regular body. Maybe if he tossed out a joke or two he would feels better... but he finds that he can't. Not like this.

Something tugs at his chest and off to the side Axel brings a hand to his face, covering his eyes. He doesn't like this... feeling so out of power. After a moment, he speaks up again, his voice slightly grating.]

Someone tell me... How do you know if you have a heart?

And is it worth all the trouble it gives?

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[goddammitaxel]

Do you think anyone here will really be able to give you a proper answer?

I warned you about the moon.

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[linefais]

I don't know. But I still have to try. It's been bugging me.

And it's not like I can do anything about the moon anyway. I can't just ignore it.

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[goddammitaxel]

Just try not to succumb to it at the slightest provocation. Knowing you, there wouldn't be any focus, and you'd just end up slaughtering whoever wandered nearby.

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[linefais]

How do you expect me to focus when I just feel like something's trying to hold me back?

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[goddammitaxel]

[There's a slight pause.]

I count stars.

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[linefais]

Stars...

Doesn't that get tiring after a while?

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[goddammitaxel]

No. Not for me.

[Voice]

[coolerthansora]

...

Mind if I join you?

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[linefais]

[Roxas. That causes Axel's focus to sharpen.

He shouldn't... because he's dangerous right now. But there's no way Roxas would aggravate him, right?]

... I don't mind.

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[coolerthansora]

[Roxas doesn't bother to reply to that, but just shuts off the SFC and portals out to the island to find his friend.]

...hey.

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[linefais]

[When Roxas arrives Axel's still staring up at the sky and by now the moon has aligned itself higher for better viewing. He's always thought the sky was pretty to look at anyway, and that's including the night, but right now it's different. He feels like he can't look away.

It takes him a moment, but he does eventually respond, shaking his head and looking over his shoulder.]

Ah- Hey.

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[coolerthansora]

[Roxas settles down to join him, looking up at the sky, too. It's a pastime he's always enjoyed, albeit more during sunset, but he's never found it as mesmerizing as Axel seems to right now.]

What's it feel like?

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[linefais]

What d'you mean?

[he raises a brow.]

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[420]

Know? Hearts ain't about knowing, bro. That is all motherfuckin' feeling right here

[Gamzee touches his chest for a moment.

Aaaand gets distracted for just a bit because touching his chest right now also sure does mean touching his tits. Wow. Tits are just wonderful miracles of flesh.

Luckily for Axel, he manages to snap out of it before he goes a'squeezing again.]

Of course it's worth it. A heart be the most important thing a motherfucker got. That's what you all got for guiding you at the shit what you need, you get?

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[linefais]

[Just going to ignore the whole boob thing. Not like he's really fascinated by them while he's in this body and all.

No offense.]

But what does it feel like?

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[420]

I ain't all sure any motherfucker can really be putting the experience of how shit feels all up in some fuckin' noise. Words just can't be capturing that stuff, you know?

Why are you getting your ask for that on anyway, bro? Ain't that some stuff what you can just up and feel go down behind your horizontal bonestack?

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[linefais]

'cause I can't feel anything. Not when I'm in this body, at least.

[He prods at his chest a little.]

... What's a horizontal bonestack?

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[420]

Haha, that's easy, bro. That's all being the part of you where your bones went and got themselves stacked all horizontal like.

[He'll helpfully indicate his chest for a moment, because those words sure weren't any manner of helpful. Seems like he is talking about one's ribcage, though there is no telling if this indeed a troll word or just a Gamzee word.

Then it is time to turn a little more serious again though. Just a pinch.]

I ain't get it though, what do you all mean like you can't feel nothing when you be in that husk?

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[linefais]

... Right.

[Ok, he thinks he gets it. Maybe. Sort of.]

It means I can't feel emotions. And I can't really express them either.

Not only is it annoying, it's boring, too.

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[goodnightsweetlisteners]

Is there a hollow, unending, rhythmic vibration echoing throughout your body?

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[linefais]

... No. I don't think so.

[Voice]

[goodnightsweetlisteners]

In that case, I suppose it's possible that you have a heart, and it's just not beating.

[Voice]

[linefais]

I'm not entirely sure that's even possible. I'd be dead if that were the case.

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[goodnightsweetlisteners]

So... I don't get it. If not having a beating heart inside your chest means you're dead, why are you asking? I mean, I don't want to be rude, but isn't that a bit obvious?

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[linefais]

I'm more talking about the ethereal heart rather than the physical one.