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[bethehugejerk]

[FILTERED AWAY FROM YUNO GASAI]

I'M ALIVE AGAIN.
I'M SURE A NUMBER OF YOU HAVE ALREADY HEARD IN ONE FASHION OR ANOTHER, OR FIGURED IT OUT FROM THE STANDARD TIME IT TAKES A PERSON TO REVIVE AFTER DEATH
(FOR THE RECORD: FIVE DAYS)
BUT CONSIDER THIS AN OFFICIAL ANNOUNCEMENT TO ALL WHO DO NOT YET KNOW.
MAY I ALSO STATE FOR THE RECORD
*ERIDAN DID NOT KILL ME.*
SO LAY THE FUCK OFF BECAUSE HE HAD NO PART IN IT BUT FINDING ME AND REMOVING THE WEAPON.
WHILE I WILL NOT CONDONE A SENSELESS MANHUNT FOR THE CULPRIT
I WILL INFORM YOU OF HER IDENTITY AND WARN YOU TO WATCH OUT FOR HER PARTICULAR BRAND OF BATSHIT.
SHE'S A HUMAN BY THE NAME OF YUNO
LIVES ON FLOOR 2, APARTMENT 5 OF THE LARMLINE COMPLEX
AND HAS LONG PINK HAIR AND PINK EYES.
DO NOT TRUST HER EVEN WITH A COFFEE MUG.
DO NOT TRUST ANY SWEET ACT SHE PUTS ON.
IN FACT, DON'T TRUST HER IN GENERAL.
ALSO MAY YOU UNDERSTAND THAT THIS IS NOT AN INVITATION TO ASK ME DUMB QUESTIONS.
I AM NOT GOING TO DISH OUT GORY ACCOUNTS OF HOW I DIED, BECAUSE REALLY, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU.
I WILL HOWEVER REQUEST AN UPDATE ON ANYTHING IMPORTANT I MISSED OVER THE PAST WEEK
BEING AS I COULD NOT KEEP AN EYE ON YOU MORONS ON ACCOUNT OF BEING A CORPSE.

[END FILTER]

[FILTERED TO THE HANDMAID]

I'VE REALIZED SOMETHING FROM THIS.
THE ISSUE ISN'T SO MUCH THAT I WANT YOU TO TRAIN ME
IT'S THAT I NEED TO LEARN.

[END FILTER]

Comments

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[bethehugejerk]

[Karkat makes an irritable noise at that. He did say that earlier, but... what are they supposed to say right now? He is therefore silent himself for a stretch, and when he does find words, they're nothing new.]

You fucked up back there, you know that?

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[420]

I know.

How... how is he all holding on?

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[bethehugejerk]

He's better than he was, but not back to normal yet.

[Another awkward pause.]

Next time, even though I sure as hell hope there won't be a next time, you keep the fuck to yourself, got it? You don't charge off after whoever's there. You wait until cooler heads can sort out who it is or until the dead person comes back and tells you what happened. You don't--you don't take a sickle to my matesprit's face!

[Oh whoops angry now.]

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[420]

[Well, he deserves all the anger right now.]

Okay.

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[bethehugejerk]

[Deserved or not, here comes the deluge.]

Okay? Is that it? It's not okay, Gamzee! He's blind in one eye now! Depth perception is no longer a thing for him, and he keeps bumping into shit and he's going to have a scar there, what were you even thinking? How could you think he would do that to me? Did you even think at all?

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[420]

I'm guessing I all didn't, no. I just... I saw you culled and all that fuckin' [red] blood and I just fuckin' lost it.

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[bethehugejerk]

[Karkat eyes him, teeth baring a bit with his aggravation, but... He can't manage to snap at him again. He knows Gamzee too well, how he is, and how it must have hurt to see his moirail dead. He saw how Equius was when Nepeta vanished. He knows how he himself gets when Eridan is threatened, even when they were still moirails.]

[In the end, he lets out a heavy sigh.]

I'm just... pissed off that it went like this. It shouldn't have. None of this crap should have happened at all. If I had just--

[He shakes his head.]

I don't know. But maybe... Designate someone to keep you in check in the event I'm not around. I'm not saying someone should do my job for me, hell no, but someone to just keep you in one place before everything gets out of hand. Or go for the sopor instead. Just--something.

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[420]

[That flares some life into him, momentarily knocking him out of the guilty, quiet mood. Pale stabbing his pusher always does that to him.]

Oh hell motherfuckin' no, bro, you ain't get to fuckin' blame this on your bad self. What happened ain't fuckin' right none, but it's my motherfuckin' fault. I know you long enough that even... even if it were him, which I ain't saying is, aight, I know he did nothing at all, but even if... you wouldn't have all wanted me to fuckin' freak like that. I fucked up big and I ain't even all sure how to motherfuckin' fix shit yet, but it were my motherfuckin' fault, aight? Not yours.

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[bethehugejerk]

If I hadn't died, none of this would have happened at all, Gamzee.

[He's quiet a second.]

But--at least you're owning up for what you did wrong in this. I'm not about to tell you cut that out. And you're going to have more fixing to do with him than me.

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[420]

You can't all be thinkin' like that, best friend. Keeping shit like that running in your pan just gives you a wicked ache. You gotta all be letting me take my motherfuckin' responsibility here.

And I know. Does he... does he even all wanna be speaking to me now? I ain't wanna force him to see this brother if he ain't chill with it none. That ain't right.

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[bethehugejerk]

[Mmmph. Grumble. But he doesn't argue.]

I don't know. He's better than he was, like I said, but he's still upset, and for good reason. But just try to talk to him. Say you want to make up for what went down, and if he wants to talk, then you can - but let him be for now if he doesn't.

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[420]

[he'll pap that self-blame right out of there one of these days.]

Aight. I was all going to, but just getting my fuckin' check on for if he done did say anything to you about not wanting to all be seeing me again. Wouldn't all be holding it against the brother if he had.

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[bethehugejerk]

Got it. Just be honest with him, own up for what you pulled like you did with me now, and just try your best. I can't say it'll be instant or easy, knowing him, but I wouldn't say impossible.

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[420]

Even if he don't wanna, I gotta fuckin' say sorry at least. I owe that to the motherfucker for what I done.

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[bethehugejerk]

[Karkat goes to say something, then stops, just looking at the screen for a moment.]

You know. Whatever happens between you and him, you and me around going to be alright.

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[420]

[It does a boy good to hear that!]

Thanks, bro. can't even all be telling how much that fuckin' means.

[Is it time for? Yes, it is time for diamond-finger-sign.]

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[bethehugejerk]

I'm still not happy with what you did, don't get me wrong, but... hearing you say that and genuinely want to fix things, that helps.

[And he makes it back.]

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[420]

Ain't none of us motherfuckers what's happy with what all fuckin' went down at. Ain't expecting any brother to be happy with what I done but...

I'm gonna all get my try on for talking to Eridan now, aight?

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[bethehugejerk]

Yeah. Good luck with that.

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[420]

If anything comes up between us, I'll tell you, aight? You got a right to all be on whatever fuckin' page we are all on at.

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[bethehugejerk]

[He nods.]

And ask Demyx to step in if you need it. He went to that trouble this last week, I'm sure he'd do it again if he needed to.

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[420]

I ain't wanna fight with him none, but if shit gets outta control like that, I will. Demyx were a good bro for what he went and done for us.

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[bethehugejerk]

I'm not implying you do, Gamzee. If you did I would have to sit your ass down and fish out why. But you seem to get my point, so I'll let it go.

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[420]

[This is a little slow in coming, because Gamzee was doing that whole apologize to Eridan thing. His expression is odd, quite unlike him, the kind of expression one would have after getting an infectious wound cleaned out harshly; knowing it had to be done for the better, but still reeling with hurt.]

I just... got done talking to Eridan.

He ain't wanna see me none no more. uh. I'll all be letting you know next time I wanna fuckin' crash your crib or something, so the motherfucker done knows when to not be there.

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[bethehugejerk]

[Hearing that isn't so great, but he's not surprised by it. Eridan is after all a grudging troll, and after something like that happened? For all he himself could come to understand quickly - even if he's still unhappy - he knows his seadweller doesn't have such an easy spot. Ultimately, he frowns. Nothing new.]

Right. If it's easier I can go over there when you want to jam, but otherwise I'll make sure to let him know if you're coming over.