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[It takes him a minute, bristling for a while, then he settles his head onto the pillow again with a soft groan]

Is your ancestor here?

[She had been wondering when he was going to ask that.]

She is.

[He gropes around until he finds her hand and squeezes] What's she like?

[She squeezes back, the ancestor deal has been such a weird experience for her.] She's an interesting troll, to say the least. While she can be pleasant, but she's also pretty reckless at times.

[But she's never been that good with trying to explain someone who she hasn't had much time to converse with, but she knows Sollux knows of a few tales and he would recognize her name when she spoke it.] My ancestor is the Handmaid-- or the Demoness, both of them are correct.

Holy shit. [Sollux is pretty shocked by that, that's for sure, and suddenly his own ancestor experience doesn't seem so weird, by comparison.] She's real?

[The reaction was expected, safe to say. Aradia shifts a bit, still keeping their fingers laced. ]

She is. She's real and I've only gotten to know so little of her. There... are similarities of the both of us, but... I'm still not sure if there's many.

[A quiet sigh.]

It's honestly so surreal to even myself.

Yeah, I can imagine...

It's weird, you know. When I found out my ancestor was here, I thought he'd be like Mindfang or something. I was worried about living up to him. But he's been through so much shit, and he thinks... I think he thinks he's unworthy of ME.

That's what I was trying to tell you earlier. You two are so similar in so many ways, this included. Coming from the troll who's really just finding out who her ancestor really was... I don't think that you have much to worry about in trying to live up to your ancestor.

Especially since Alternia's now gone.

[There's almost no emotion said in those last few sentences, she's being as blunt as she can. ]

He has been through a lot, and you have been through a lot. [She just wants to take both of them to her arms and make them not think these thiiings...]

[He nods, listening to what she's saying. It does make him feel a bit better that she understands, and squeezes her hand]

Yeah, you were right. But maybe we can figure things out... now that I understand what's going on with him better, now.

[Gosh, this is why she's missed you. Despite gaining such connection to the others, she still finds herself only wanting to speak about these things as freely as she wants to with him.]

I hope we can, at least now you have the same understanding I do of him specifically. She's... going to be a ... challenge.

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[He missed you, too, babe. Though he has a hard time really showing it out loud. He scoots a little closer and curls onto his side, papping her leg a little with his free hand]

Maybe I can help, who knows? But shit, the Demoness... who knows how she thinks.

[Oh honey, she knows that the feeling's so mutual. Ahhh, gosh the papping. the papping does help, obviously, and she can't help but lean in, making herself comfortable. ]

I'd want nothing more, even if it's going to be more on my own. I really wouldn't want to saddle you with this.

[He's so okay with this. He continues papping lightly, moving to her cheek]

Well, it's up to you...I mean, she's your ancestor.

[Yep. Papping helped considerably.]

... Maybe the extra help would be appreciated. And, she'd get to know you as well.

I'm not sure I want to get to know the Demoness. [Pause] Well, but if it'll help you, then I will.

She isn't too bad, you know...

[A gentle tug on his cheek. And now for something different.]

There's... another thing I need to talk to you about, now that I'm also thinking about it. It's... a lot more important than my ancestor situation.

[He's okay with leaving that topic behind.]

What's that?

Well... It involves yourself, myself and Feferi. Which, you are going to need to listen to the entire thing before I get your opinion on the matter, alright?

[Oh my god this is going to be the hardest conversation ever 8C]

[...Oh.

Shit.

This sounds bad.

He withdraws his hand and nods, half-folding his hands together in front of him to keep himself from fidgeting]

Okay, sure.

Well, we ... Ahh, let me start it from the beginning.

[So hard! C'mon girl, you can do it.]

When you were around the last time, you were my moirail, and involved with a few others. You had left, and it has been perigees since your return. During the time that you were gone Feferi came, the one that resides in the bubble right now. We had such common ground, and during that time I had also become matesprits with John, who ended up leaving. And, she was there for me when he had left.

[........ She's so baashful now, gosh.]

You'll... never guess what had happened.

[Gosh, trolls, y so much soap opera romance. Sollux is following all of this without too much trouble, but he bites his lip when she stops]

...You're moirails?

[That's not as bad as he expected from the way she was talking, but now he feels a bit awkward. Hadn't they been jamming? At least a little? Was he stepping on Feferi's territory?]

Actually....

[Baby don't do that, it's already really hard on her.]

Think... more red.

[Oh...right, that makes sense.

He forces himself to smile]

Congratulations.

Shhhh...

[Gosh, you get a pap. She knows what you're thinking, Sollux!]

I'm not finished!

[Sob. Yeah, so she continues on, rubbing his shoulder.]

Don't think that we weren't thinking of you the entire time. In fact, we almost didn't even hook up at first. [That and the whole thing with John, but... detail!] Anyways, we had told each other that if you were to come back, there's something we'd do.

[She pulls her arm away, arms into her lap.]

We want to know what your thoughts are on it. Mainly... who you would want to be with. We're not forcing you into anything you don't want to do, but... we don't want to leave you behind, you know?

[Oh, he thought that was the part where he was supposed to express his opinion. He recoils a tiny bit from the papping, but listens, his shoulder a rock under her rubbing.

It's all fine that they thought of him. Sweet, actually. But it doesn't really relieve the black direction his mind is going. So his girls have both hooked up, which is sweet, he supposes. Aradia said that they had a lot in common - and one of things is a thing for nerdy freaks, probably. Maybe they talk about him.

Oh god.

None of this is helping.]

...Is this the part where I'm allowed to talk?

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