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Expatriate Darkleer ([personal profile] aim_exorable) wrote in [community profile] caughtinanetwork2012-01-19 11:14 pm

1 ♐ Voice ♐ A brief check up

[Wow, Darkleer is actually communicating with the network on a whole for once instead of being a miserable hermit. Must be a special occasion. Does anyone know his wiggling day?]

Now then. Have we all cleansed ourselves of the mess and done whatever strange death rituals foreign species feel the need to do?

[Okay, maybe it is just Darkleer being a coldhearted dick. Eh.]

I believe we should focus on the more important matter here. I have seen discussions scattered throughout the network, but it would be best to have all our thoughts and speculations focused in one place on both the destruction of those so-called faeries and on the recent appearance of that Carol individual.

For those of you who are oblivious and prone to missing the obvious, things are changing in this place. It would be best to be prepared.

[Don't be fooled, he's not doing this to be nice. He's doing what any troll knows to do: looking out for himself and the few he cares about. If that means even faintly working with others, well, he'll learn to deal.]

[Also, that's all the network is getting from him. Click goes the camera!]


[Filtered to Summoner]

[Darkleer hesitates before sending this one out, although his voice is just as stoic and stern as ever.]

Since your children in particular seem to be taking this badly, perhaps it would benefit you to know that those things which followed us were nothing more than mere robots. The technology may have been organic in nature, but it was still nothing truly living. No pain, no loss of life.

That's all.
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[personal profile] rebull 2012-01-21 03:11 am (UTC)(link)
[The way Darkleer is following him is unnerving. Lysunder feels his hands shake a bit more, curling his fingers tight around the thermos, his other hand balled tight into a fist. Worried, why's he worried, is it because Darkleer is following him like that? So silent, stealthily, it's nerve wracking. His wings flicker and he swallows, looking back again, still there, but he can't hear him besides his words. Why's he following him?! What does it matter!? Leave him alone, this is frustrating and annoying and kind of terrifying and dear god he's getting really anxious. A deep breath and he stops, looking over his shoulder, a heavy swing of his horns revolving around him.]

Just leave me alone, what...what--wh...UGH. WHAT DO YOU EXPECT TO ACCOMPLISH!? [Says turning around quickly, stepping back. His head shakes, letting out a shuddering breath. The scream came out a bit clearer than his voice was allowing, perhaps due to the tea and just how loud he yelled. It echoed around the trees and even made him jump. The Summoner's eyes quickly closed, hand slowly moving up to press at his eyes as his lids squinted tight.]

I won't sleep.

So just go. Being here w-w-w...[Swallow.] Won't make a difference.
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[personal profile] rebull 2012-01-21 09:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[His gaze is hard, staring at him, eyes glassy.]

Then w-w- [He closes his eyes, lowering his head as he sneers.]

Then why even try? I'll be fine. Okay? I'll always be fine.

[He... he knows why Darkleer tried, why he messaged him, why he's acting like this. He's pretty sure he knows, and is pretty sure Darkleer doesn't, or is at least reluctant to admit why. Summoner is empathetic if anything, and he can tell, but he doesn't want that to be the issue. It'd be easier if Darkleer was still an emotionless wall to him, still contesting him as he did when he first arrived. That would make this all easier.]

[This place is a lie, a false paradise that will only go away and it's useless to make anything more of his time here besides calm leisure before his unending war wraps around him again. When the cries of his men and the sounds of lance and claw echo around him, drowning out the screams and illusions in his mind. Unlike this place which is so quiet, there's nothing else he can hear, and there isn't even anything he, or anyone else can do to stop it. And that's fine, it's his burden alone. This blue blood executioner will only confuse himself further by continuing these encounters, and Summoner really doesn't need-- He sees the other's hand twitching, subtly, Lysunder's eyes dragging slowly up to look at Darkleer's face again, as if scared to lock gaze with him for a second time, despite his spectacles--

He really can't afford to make attachments.]


Okay?
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[personal profile] rebull 2012-01-21 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[He swallows, a weight in his chest causing his whole body to feel like it will collapse at any moment. Though, that probably isn't helped by his exhaustion.]

That's not-- that isn't the case here, it is not that I don't care, that is not a thing that is happening.

It's. [He finally manages to lock his eyes on where Darkleer's should be, irises and pupils moving around before finally staying still at one point, right in the middle, no longer searching for a gaze he can actually see.]

You, you-- You shouldn't care. You, you have those kids to look after anyway, right? I can handle myself, and. Um. What, whatever problems I may or may not have.

But this isn't about how I feel about yo-yoou-- you.
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[personal profile] rebull 2012-01-21 09:56 pm (UTC)(link)
How can I take care of myself here? W-w-what is this place even? I don't know anything about a life so...

Quiet. I can't handle this, y- you. You can't hear it. I can hear it, it's like, I'm asleep right now, I, I- [He drops the thermos and brings both his hands to knead hard at his forehead, covering his eyes.] I wish sleeping still worked, but now, now it's just ...

When it's loud I don't need to hear it, I can't, everything else drowns it out, but here, here that snap and boom, it. It was- was so loud. It's all I can hear now. [Summoner sighs, wings slicking back behind him. it would be better for both of them if he left.]
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[personal profile] rebull 2012-01-22 04:20 am (UTC)(link)
I don't need to get over it, I need to go back!

[His eyebrows furrow, slouching into himself more, hands gripping at his face harder.]

I need to go back, and see them, and be there for them, and know that I can be there to support them and... I, uh, d-d-d-damnit!
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[personal profile] rebull 2012-01-22 05:17 am (UTC)(link)
I know, I know. I just, being here is a thing I don't w-w-w. I don't want. How can you stand it, not being w-w-w... Not being where you should be?

[He ducks his head down more before going to crouch down, wings smoothing out over the grass as he curls into himself, hands going to grate hard into his hair, mostly like splitting his scalp here and there, but Lysunder doesn't seem to mind. If anything the pain will drown out the pounding in his skull.]

I'll never give up, ever. That isn't something I can allow myself to do. Giving up isn't a choice i get to make, it's selfish.
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[personal profile] rebull 2012-01-22 06:12 am (UTC)(link)
[The hand gripping his wrist makes him jump, and his jerk away from his is violent, almost popping his arm out of joint. The movement is soaked in fear, but he stops once his gaze locks onto Darkleer's, hands shaking, wings spread.]

[Seeing Darkleer's eyes like that meant something, even with them as barely noticeable slits. He felt like his own eyes were going to start betraying him, and they get glassy, but he keeps his lids open, knowing if he was to squint it would ease the salty liquid from his sockets that he was doing so well to hold back.]


Ha...

Th-

[He feels the tug on his wrist, but he doesn't allow himself to stand up, looking down to the grass, eyes searching various strands, wings slowly going to lazily press against the ground behind him.]

Them-- but. No one here should be concerned. It's pointless, this is pointless.
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[personal profile] rebull 2012-01-22 06:32 am (UTC)(link)
[He lets out a slight whine when Darleer grabs his arm and tugs again, but he reluctantly stands, wings buzzing slightly before folding behind him. He doesn't want to be here, here as in Vatheon, here as in this forest, here as in right here, with Darkleer, grabbing his wrist and arm, and caring about him.]

[Empathy, right. Sometimes it was painful being so empathetic; and idiot could could see this as pity, and Summoner really really wished he was less intelligent then what would be considered 'idiotic'. That would make this easy, that would make this ...]

[A sigh.]

[Daaaaaamnit]


Fine, w-what- what ...Fine.
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[personal profile] rebull 2012-01-22 04:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Are you- you. Are you really saying that to me? Or is that more to y-y-yourself?

[He eyes the hand on his wrist intently as they walk, his nostrils flared, actions stilted and rigid.]
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[personal profile] rebull 2012-01-22 04:39 pm (UTC)(link)
[He feels ...so young right now. Just the way Darkleer is treating him, inspecting him, like he's one of the kids here. It frustrating. Part of him is starting to relax a little though. Was this pity something like what the other felt for those younger trolls? Something lusus like instead of anything else? Thinking of it like that made this a bit easier to mentally deal with.]

W-w... What?

[His wings shrink behind him, back curling forward and torso crumpling into itself as well. He does his beck to glare but it's really too weak to portray his agitation.]
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[personal profile] rebull 2012-01-22 05:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[Shrug.]

[Keep acting like a kid.]

[Make this weird, and not a, I kind of acknowledge the fact that I romantically pity this person by accident and don't want to act on it, kind of weird, but a, this is like, my lusus, and I wouldn't do my lusus weird.]
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[personal profile] rebull 2012-01-22 05:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[He grabs the edge of the bench on either side of him, teetering back a back and closing his eyes.]

[Yep, really.]

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