[text - and she forgot the anon part!]

[booyaka_boom]

Important - someone please bring sake and chocolate to the chocobo barn. Lots of it. Immediately.

Do not enter the barn. Leave it by the door.

*Not the usual kind of message from Selphie - she had meant for it to be anon, but given how utterly miserable she's feeling, she'd forgotten to turn on the button. So there's your text, Vatheon, from a girl who is suffering too much now that Aya has left the bubble*

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[text]

[booyaka_boom]

The situation is that everyone I ever get close to leaves this place. I'm fed up of being left on my own...

...just so tired of this place...

I just can't be here anymore.

[text]

[closedcircuit]

We don't really have a choice, so it comes down to making the most of it.

Even if you don't allow yourself to become attached, the difference you make to someone else's life is still something.

[text]

[booyaka_boom]

That's just it - there's nothing left to make the most of! No one to make it with...

Someone else's life? When is it ever gonna be time for something good to happen in my life? Just to benefit me? It really shouldn't be too much to ask...

[text]

[closedcircuit]

It is.

We can't serve for ourselves, or it isn't really service.

[text]

[booyaka_boom]

Well, here's something, mister: you're not doing so much to help serve me right now with this talk. So thanks.

*Sorry Ky, she is so sad that she can only be mad*

[text]

[closedcircuit]

When it's cold and you have no shelter, it turns out you can build one out of snow.

There's always hope.

*His optimism can take it.*

[text]

[booyaka_boom]

I'm in the chocobo barn. That's shelter enough. At least they won't just up and leave me...

[text]

[closedcircuit]

Perhaps company would do you better than liquor.

[text]

[booyaka_boom]

But... everyone keeps leaving me...

[text]

[closedcircuit]

And?

[text]

[booyaka_boom]

And...

...I don't know. I'm too tired, too fed up...

[text]

[closedcircuit]

To what? To care?

You don't really get a choice over that. By making your heart hard you only hurt yourself more.

[text]

[booyaka_boom]

I don't know, Ky... Okay? I'm too fed up to think anymore. I don't know what you want me to say. Just...let me sit here and harden my heart if that's what you think's happening. I'm not hurting anyone else.

[text]

[closedcircuit]

You're hurting yourself.

Surely I'm allowed to care about that?

[text]

[booyaka_boom]

I don't know... do you?

[text]

[closedcircuit]

Yes.

[text]

[booyaka_boom]

Oh...


*Sorry Ky, that's all she can manage right now. She's just too tearful!*

[text]

[closedcircuit]

Are you by the barn? I can bring you some tea.

[text]

[booyaka_boom]

I'm in the barn. With the chocobos.

*She'd much rather have something stronger to drink...but she knows how he feels about that, so she's not even going to go there*

[text]

[closedcircuit]

*It seems to him like she almost wants or needs company more than drugs, and he's not good at that aspect of things but for her he can and will try. He can't know he'll fail unless he has, after all.

He knocks on the door to the barn carefully with his elbow, carrying a tea service on a tray in both his hands.*

Selphie?

[booyaka_boom]

*Sitting on the floor of the barn, Selphie is snuggled up next to a chocobo lying with its head on her knee. She glances up and rubs at her eyes, which are already red and puffy*

You can...just leave that on the floor..if you want..

[closedcircuit]

I brought enough for both of us.

*And he doesn't exactly plan to just drop it off and go.*

[booyaka_boom]

Oh...

*Selphie turns her face more towards him then, looking genuinely quite confused about the gesture. Still, she waves a hand, very slightly, vaguely towards somewhere near where she was sitting*

[closedcircuit]

*Ky sets the tea down between the two of them and then takes a seat as well, reaching for the pot and a cup to pour.

He's not sure what to say so for now he's silent, treating this like a sort of ritual.*

[booyaka_boom]

*Selphie does eventually sit up, rubbing at a puffy red eye with the back of her hand. She clears her throat, struggling to speak*

Why did you..bring this?

*She looks genuinely confused, like she really doesn't understand what seems to be a friendly act of kindness*