caughtinanetwork | Day 115

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Day 115 - [Voice]

[Roxas normally doesn't have a problem using video on these things, but... Well, for some reason he doesn't feel like broadcasting his face right now.]

Is it weird to feel connected to someone you've got nothing in common with? Personality-wise, I mean. Like maybe you're in a similar situation, but you turned out completely different...

Guess I'm thinking too much lately.

[Filtered to Sora]
This is kind of stupid, but... Have you turned sixteen already?

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Right.

... But hey, good luck with it. I know what it's like to have a weird connection with someone who's bad news.

Thanks.

...is yours here? Whoever you're- connected to, I mean.

No... I'd know if he was here. [...] So would everyone else, I bet.

It's - It feels kind of weird. I only just found out about the connection and it already feels strange to not have him around.

...I guess it's different when you know about it for a while first.

There's someone closer to me, and- it felt really strange to actually meet him. ...but, maybe it'll feel weird when he goes, too.

Oh... so you knew about that connection before you met him? I guess it'd be... pretty strange, if I did too. I don't even know what I'd do...

[Apologize, probably. For stealing everything from him, even though it was unintentional.]

Yeah. I just didn't understand it for a long time.

He's the one who didn't have any idea.

Huh...

Hey, you don't have to answer if you don't want to, but... who's that guy to you? I mean, how're you two connected?

He's...

[No. He really can't say it. Not to someone he barely knows, even if he seems like he might get it.]

He's the closest thing I have to family. That's all.

[... Mm. That sense of hesitation is familiar, and Luke can fully empathize with that. Even if Roxas asked, Luke's sure he wouldn't tell him what his connection is to Asch. If he can't even tell people he considers friends at this point...]

Family... It's nice to have that, huh? No matter who it is.

Y-yeah. I guess it is...

[Luke isn't even sure if he can even call his family that anymore. All they did... All this time, they were housing a fake of their son. Not the real...

And his original utterly despises him for it. There's no way he could ever see him as a family member.]

I'm... really glad you've got someone like that. You're lucky.

Only here.

[Sora's the lucky one, back home. Roxas doesn't have anything there.]

But- I'm sure you've got friends and all.

I... yeah. Maybe.

[He still isn't sure how Jade and the others feel about him, and he isn't sure if the friends he has here truly feel that way about him or find him annoying or... Luke's just surprised no one outwardly hates him or anything.]

I've never really... had friends before this, so I wouldn't really know. [Guy's the closest he could count as a friend, but he still isn't sure.]

[Never really had friends? At least from this conversation, Roxas can't see any obvious reasons for that. But, if the reason for Luke's "connection" is anything like his to Sora...]

If... there was something back home that made people not want to- talk to you and stuff, well- No one knows or cares about that here.

I know! ... I know.

[Which is why he shouldn't tell anyone. This is a place where he can just... start over. Maybe. If he can just not think about St. Binah and the state his world is in for more than a few hours.]

It's just hard, I guess. I can't stop thinking about... stuff back home.

...did something bad happen?

... Yeah. And I was just on my way to try to fix things before I got here.

It'll be there when you get back. At least it can be fixed, right?

I don't - ... I'm not sure. But it has to be. If it can't, then - more people will die!

[Even that's probably too much to say. So, he grits his teeth, shuts his eyes, then speaks up a little more quietly.]

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell. It's just hard to stop worrying something like that.