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1 ♐ Voice ♐ A brief check up

[Wow, Darkleer is actually communicating with the network on a whole for once instead of being a miserable hermit. Must be a special occasion. Does anyone know his wiggling day?]

Now then. Have we all cleansed ourselves of the mess and done whatever strange death rituals foreign species feel the need to do?

[Okay, maybe it is just Darkleer being a coldhearted dick. Eh.]

I believe we should focus on the more important matter here. I have seen discussions scattered throughout the network, but it would be best to have all our thoughts and speculations focused in one place on both the destruction of those so-called faeries and on the recent appearance of that Carol individual.

For those of you who are oblivious and prone to missing the obvious, things are changing in this place. It would be best to be prepared.

[Don't be fooled, he's not doing this to be nice. He's doing what any troll knows to do: looking out for himself and the few he cares about. If that means even faintly working with others, well, he'll learn to deal.]

[Also, that's all the network is getting from him. Click goes the camera!]

[Filtered to Summoner]

[Darkleer hesitates before sending this one out, although his voice is just as stoic and stern as ever.]

Since your children in particular seem to be taking this badly, perhaps it would benefit you to know that those things which followed us were nothing more than mere robots. The technology may have been organic in nature, but it was still nothing truly living. No pain, no loss of life.

That's all.

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[...Yeah that is strange even for a Helmsman. Darkleer feels some concern twinge in the back of his mind.]

D --> Reasoning?

[ Helmsmen aren't supposed to have existential crises, but everyone's been working so hard to make sure that he thinks he's not just a helmsman. ]

A conver2atiion wiith Karkat Vantas.
Attached ii2 an except of the conver2atiion.
Two put that iin the context of 2tatement2 of 'Carol'

II do not know.

[Darkleer reads over the conversation and finds himself frowning. This is somewhat problematic...]

D --> There may be alternate theories to explain his words

II can thiink of dozen2.
My miind keep2 comiing back two thii2.
II cannot 2top con2iideriing thii2 2peciifiic po22iibiiliity.

D --> I believe
D --> In this case
D --> It may be better if we were to arrange a meeting face to face once more

A2 you wii2h, 2iir.
II would liike two a2k the rea2on, iif II may?

D --> There are two
D --> The first is to make sure that the dilemma you are facing is not affecting your physical body too much with stress

[Yes, this means tea.]

D --> The second is because hearing my solution aloud may do you better than if I merely typed it out

II under2tand, hiighblood.
IIf iit would be acceptable, could thii2 occur iin a non-publiic area?
II am un2ure
about dii2cu22iing thii2 matter around other people.

[ Not exactly true, but some days were worse when it came to leaving the hive. ]

D --> Of course
D --> There are areas in the Nostalgia Quarter which could be used for such purposes
D --> Avoiding interaction with others

Thank you for your con2iideratiion.
II 2hall go where you requiire me a2 2oon a2 you would liike.

D --> It would be best to get this situation taken care of as soon as possible

Ye2, II 2hall headed twoward2 the No2talgiia Quarter pre2ently.

D --> Good.

[Darkleer finishes up a few things on his own before he begins to travel there, arriving at the entrance not too long after his last message to the Helmsman.]

[ There is a bit of a delay before the Helmsman finally arrives, his expression painfully closed off. He's been lost in those troubling thoughts for a little while now, and it was only becoming more and more disruptive to his thought process.

For some reason, the idea that he might not exist as he had thought he did bothered him in a profound way. ]

[It would bother anyone, Darkleer knows, and for someone as unstable as the Helmsman...]

[Once he's close enough, Darkleer gestures for him to follow and begins to lead the way to a small, closed off corner of the Nostalgia Nook. It's a twisted area that could almost be called a private garden, the branches twisting more like bizarre vines. Strange flower buds are here and there, but he's already made sure none of it is poisonous. Despite the flora, it's not bright and colorful at all, which he appreciates. Settling down on a bench, he pulls a thermos of hot chamomile tea from his sylladex and holds it out to the Helmsman.]

[At this rate, he's going to have to restock on them.]

Drink this, breathe calmly, and alert me to when you are ready to discuss this.

[ When he sits, the Helmsman draws his knees up to his chest. He's a lanky, awkward sort of man and it is not the most dignified of positions, but it certainly is an insight into his frame of mind. He obeys his orders meticulously, sipping tea with a slow, deliberate pacing as he attempts to exactingly control his breathing.

He is, unsurprisingly, distinctly uncomfortable with everything going on through his mind. His distress, however, does lessen some small amount after an uncertain number of minutes and he finally indicates a desire to speak. ]

...my apologieth, thir.

For once, this is nothing to apologize for. This is merely a glitch your systems have not been prepared for. That is why we are meeting: to change that.

[Crossing his arms, Darkleer raises a closed hand to his mouth and thinks for a moment to get his words into order.]

The problem here is that you believe that we do not exist outside of the space Vatheon has provided for us. I’ve thought about what you said, and I believe I have a theory for why you are so obsessed with such an idea. Before arriving here, you were the Helmsman of Her Imperious Condescension’s ship and that is what your life revolved around, correct? You were simply a component and nothing more.

I am.

[ The confirmation comes out as more of a pained sound than words. The thought of not being what he had once been still trips over his obedience protocols. He's supposed to be a proper component to the ship, and thinking about the fact that he is doing something else is what he tries very hard not to consider. ]

I am a component in thervithe to the Empreth. My life thtill revolveth around thith.

Sssshhh. Quiet now.

[Gently, he lays a hand on the Helmsman's shoulder.]

I know. Right now, you are simply not attached to where you should be. It is a minor setback. But in the meantime, you are surrounded by many other individuals who are constantly telling you the opposite. It is a conflict of what you are programmed with and what you are being overloaded with, and I suspect that conflict is what is making you so obsessed with this idea of not existing outside of Vatheon.

[ The Helmsman takes a shuddering breath as that large hand settles on his shoulder, but he seems to lean towards the touch almost without thinking. He wants to speak; he wants to explain how much he needs to return to his original purpose. He was failing Her and he couldn't take it.

Was it why he could not consider other possibilities to explain the phenomena of Vatheon?

He isn't particularly sure. He can't speak, looking over and up at the other man beseechingly. ]

[Darkleer, to some degree, understands. Not having a purpose is terrifying. For someone who has literally being wired into his life's purpose- or the purpose given to him by others at any rate- it must be worse than he can imagine.]

[Tremendously gentle, one of his fingers begins to stroke along Psii's shoulder, as if he were a skittish horse of some kind.]

If you had more of a defined purpose during your stay here, would you believe that would help alleviate some of your anxiety, Helmsman?

Yeth, highblood.

[ It's volunteered very reluctantly, like he's afraid that's the wrong answer. He knows there are no real traps when talking to Darkleer. The other man is upfront and honest, bound by a code the Helmsman doesn't entirely understand.

But he can't shake the feeling that he's doing something wrong. ]

Very well.

[Even Darkleer knows this isn't quite right. But he won't say that. It isn't his place, and the last time he attempted this, well... It's better to simply give some sort of support. Those who are truly his friends can work on trying to get his self dependence back. They will have better luck than he at any rate.]

I'll create some mental work for you to do- scenarios, mathematical problems, et cetera.

Try not to consider this abandoning your duties entirely. It is simply an.. unexpected but necessary upgrade that requires you to be put out of commission for a short period of time.

I will do ath you command.

[ The Helmsman closes his eyes, his breathing still very deliberately slow. He still feels faintly nauseous, not quite able to regain his bearings, but he's latching onto what he's been told to think.

That doesn't stop him from asking: ]

What if it ith true? What if we are thimply conthtructth of thith plathe?

Then we will adapt. But for now?

[His finger is still doing the same repetitive, calming movement. Darkleer keeps his voice low, soft.]

It is too wild a speculation to put much stock in until we have more concrete evidence. Besides. The implications of what that would mean would be too much for you, I think.

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