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[the device has been simple enough for Kaworu to figure out. he's laying on his back on a couch somewhere, his silver hair splayed messily, and he's smiling at the device that he's holding out straight ahead, both of his arms fully extended.]

This place is very strange.

It's amusing enough, but I wonder—are people's dreams here always broadcasted like that? It makes for an interesting first impression, to bare the psyche unwittingly like that. It's almost... intimate. Right? Isn't it? Does it feel violating, for someone having seen your dreams?

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[Kaworu's not actually positive how to define his interest, especially not how to vocalize it to answer Asuka's question. but his expression eases into a slow smile.]

Really? That's too bad.

I like him. So naturally, I would want to see him.

[She isn't even going to respond to the first thing. Ain't gonna work, weirdo.]

Too bad, you can't. If he's the one I know, he wouldn't know you even if he did show up.

That could be true, if he was from before I came to NERV. But that would be okay, too.

If you even come to Nerv in my version of the world, which I still don't buy.

[So much for not repeating herself.]

He'd probably be weirded out in his own way if you went and tried to tell him all your stories about what supposedly happened. Do you really think people like strangers trying to insist they know them?

[wait should he care about what people like??? hm

Kaworu chuckles, feeling smug.]

Then perhaps I would spare him, and I can use you as a learning experience.

It would be better if you did spare him, but I can't say I'm happy about being used as a learning experience. You should have figured that out on your own if you actually thought about it!

Don't people learn through experience, not through introspection?

Without practice, speculation is useless.

So what, I'm not allowed to be unhappy about some freak bothering me with his awful stories? And learning through experience is one thing, but that's no excuse for not thinking first.

Edited 2013-02-11 06:10 (UTC)

Did I say you had to be happy?

Besides, I do consider everything I say—my thought processes are merely different from yours.

We're different, after all. I can't think the way you do.

Hmph. I guess not, jerk.

[Though at this point, she has no interest in whatever he'd try to make her happy, if he cared about it.]

Obviously your thoughts are different. You're a creep and an idiot both, so how couldn't they be?

Well, it's not that...

But, how am I an idiot?

[KAWORU KNOWS IDIOTIC. idiotic is Rei. big stupid hero who gets the broody boy, as Kaworu's come to completely misunderstand.]

[Well, Rei's an idiot too, but Asuka's had a nice break from having to deal with or think about her. She's not going to break that streak now.]

How do you think? You showed up trying to insist you knew me and that I went through a coma and everything when I told you straight up that I'd never seen you! I still don't even know your name, not that I'd want to for anything but a means to avoid you.

And like I said at the start, you should have figured out on your own that having your dreams shown to other people would be weird and invasive, meaning your whole post had no practical point.

I was only trying to illuminate the situation from my point of view; they say that stubbornness is its own form of stupidity.

Anyway, I don't think I'd feel that way, if someone saw my dreams. The point of my post was not meant for any sort of practicality beyond own entertainment.

It worked.

[She waves a hand.]

And believing anything you're told is called gullibility. I have a strong mind with no patience for dumb stories, and you're not going to insult me into changing it.

If you want to exhibit your dreams to everyone, that's your own choice. I don't expect you to have normal desires yourself.

[If only she knew. ~~Better that she doesn't.~~]

... I don't suppose I do.

[liking other boys is weird. he remembers that, even if he doesn't understand why.]

Anyway, my intention isn't to change your mind; I like it as it is.

[confusing. funny. flawed. human.]

Hah. At least you admit it.

[Better she doesn't know that, either. She'd hardly be the most progressive.]

I don't care if you like it, though you sure act funny about it if you do. And I can tell you right away I don't like yours at all.

That's fine. Normal, even, for Lilim.

Besides, I don't know if I'd want a person like you to like my mind, so I guess our feelings are mostly mutual.

So you're saying you're weird to people in general, huh?

Whether or not you want me to is irrelevant, because I don't, and that's how it is. Good for you if you're fine with it, but I really don't care.

It seems people are of that opinion, so I'd say so based on that.

But I think all the chosen Children are a little unusual, personally.

It would be hard to call us usual when we were the few chosen to help save mankind. The difference is whether what makes them unusual is a good thing.

Edited 2013-02-11 07:29 (UTC)

Hmm, well—that's something to consider...

I don't think our being unusual is a good or bad thing, but I wonder if it's necessary? Perhaps there's some common factor between each Child that somehow makes them most suited to piloting, and that's what makes them unusual.

I'd say it varies from Child to Child.

[Obviously, her unusualness has to be a good thing. But a common factor?]

Maybe, though it beats me to figure out what that is. I suppose that's why the Marduk Institute is necessary.

I guess that's just something to think about. Something that unites the chosen. As just people, there are many inevitable links such as our age and biological constitution that ties us together, but it probably goes deeper than that.

So if that were true, Second, what do you think that would be?

I already said I don't know, didn't I? God, are you dense? If it takes a whole committee to figure it out, we're not going to discover it just by sitting around speculating.

[Kaworu only laughs, finding her lack of ability to think abstractly as endearing as it is funny.]

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